Sick kids :(

Until the last 2 weeks or so, we had been pretty lucky with not getting more than the common cold! Probably had a lot to do with us being in the US until the end of November, but I was hoping with us being home more and not going out so much, we'd get lucky and skip the sickness. Ha, yeah right.

Not long after we got home I was having issues. Not sick, but pain and other symptoms. I ended up going to the ER and put on antibiotics and pain medication. Then, just about the time I was feeling better Darien starts complaining of his belly hurting. He threw up 2 nights in a row, no fever and no other symptoms, just the belly pain. Finally, after 5 days of him complaining, I took him to the ER. He was severely constipated (even though he had been pooping). He had to have 2 enemas done, which are by far my least favorite thing. Then, just as he is feeling better, Adrien starts having a fever. At first it was just a fever and tylenol was taking it down.

Today, however, tylenol did nothing for it. He cried ALL morning, between short naps, and was so hot he was his own little furnace. I called, but of course, no appointments available. So, I was told to take him to the ER because chances were they wouldn't have any tomorrow either. Well, even if they had some for tomorrow, I wasn't going to wait that long. I learned with Darien that I will no longer listen to my child tell me he is in pain and not do something about it right away. So, off to the ER we go.

When we first got there, his fever was 103.4. His heart rate was WAY higher than a normal heart rate and even the nurse could feel the heat radiating off him without even touching him. Because of how high his temperature was, they got him right in! They gave him motrin (which I didn't have at home) and that seemed to help almost immediately. The doctor came in, checked out his ears, and both ears are infected. The right ear is a lot worse than the left ear, which is why that was the ear he kept messing with. I knew before I took him in what it was, so thankfully it was pretty quick.

Since having the motrin, he has been in such better spirits. Not a single tear since coming home, at least not because of the pain. He's on antibiotics and will hopefully be back to his normal little self soon. It's so hard when the kids are not feeling well. I love their personalities and when they are ill, they aren't themselves.

I am hoping that this is it, at least until after we move. We haven't gone out too much, staying away from people who are sick and staying out of crowded places for the most part. I don't go shopping unless I NEED something, so maybe we can keep the yucky sicknesses from hitting us! If not, guess it will be dealt with, but one can hope.

Almost a new year

What a weekend!!! Friends, food, gifts and lots of laughs have been shared! And we aren't done yet. Still waiting on a few things through the mail from family and then our Christmas will finally be complete!

We don't normally splurge on things, but I think this year we went all out, especially for the kids. All the cool stuff that they got will keep them happy for quite a while! I am excited to get to play with them and all their cool new stuff, and to take them out on their awesome new hot wheels when weather permits it!

Hubby and I had originally said we wouldn't buy more than simple stocking stuffers for each other, just focus more on the kids, but of course, that didn't happen. I got some pretty awesome stuff, and stuff I had considered getting for myself very soon! New gloves, scarf, velcro body towel and matching robe!!! And of course some nice new earrings that I can change up with different outfits! He didn't get as cool of stuff, but he got some much needed shirts. Plus, I think our new TV can be counted as a gift for us all!

Now we just wait for the last box of things from the family in the states and we will be done with Christmas! I am excited to show the boys what they got from everyone, and ready to see it all myself! I know what it all is, but seeing it in person will be so much better!

Now, we start to get ready for the new year! I am not one to make resolutions because I never stick to them, but the new year brings all sorts of new things! We are moving toward the end of January, hopefully paying off a lot of our debt with taxes and getting back onto the right track with our finances! School is bringing up a lot of new ideas for me also. I am rethinking my major already and even considering changing schools to get better benefits from it.

The only other thing the new year is going to bring, that I am sure of, is a new attitude about myself! I am already working on it and seeing a lot of changes in myself, so I will continue to work hard and be a better person, wife, mother and friend! I am going to start going to the gym, work on quitting smoking and try to get back into the shape I was before I had my kids! If I can do that, I am doing wonderful!!!

What does the new year bring for you?

Can you believe it?!

Can you believe it? Christmas is knocking at our doors, already! This year has really flown by. I remember it seemed to drag in some parts, but really, I can't believe it's already Christmas. I can definitely say that my LONG trip to the states really helped pass a lot of time, making Christmas seem to come a lot quicker.

I am really missing my family and closest friends in the states right now. I remember Christmas being family dinner and gift exchanges and lots of laughter. I really miss that. This year, we are starting our own little traditions, with the memory of what we've had and what we'd like to do as "our own".

Christmas morning is just for our family. This year we will not only be giving them lost of neat presents, but sharing the real story of Christmas! They are still very young, and it might not sink in right away, but at least we can tell them about it and hope to raise them knowing that Christmas isn't about the presents you get, it's about Christ and celebrating his life!

Family dinner is a must! Though, it's not blood family that we get to share it with now, it's our military family here in Germany. We have some friends coming over for a yummy feast! Turkey, stuffing, mashed taters, chocolate and banana pudding pies, apple pie, cranberry sauce and whatever else people are bringing over! I can't wait!

I am really excited to see the kids' faces when they wake up Christmas morning! They have no idea what they are in for this year! We did a lot more than we originally intended on doing, but they deserve it! They've been really good this year, just being the awesome little boys they are!


Another thing this week brings for us is deciding to move! Because my car is crapped out again, I've decided it's best if we live on base. I love my current house, but getting anywhere from up here is tough not having a car. And, waking the boys up at 0630 to take hubby to work and have to come home before doing anything isn't my idea of a good day. At least with living on base we will have parks within walking distance and people around all the time so the kids should hopefully have a few new friends! We accepted a house today and will be moving next month! I am excited!

Though, moving on base brings a few challenges. We have to downsize, big time. Next week will begin my frantic cleaning and getting rid of things. We have way too much and we won't fit in the new place with it all. Luckily our furniture is fine, its the little things that we have to part with. I have a basement full of appliances and stuff that we haven't used, old clothes and stuff. Just got to get all those boxes emptied and out before the movers come!

That's all my news for now! I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!!!

Last Year

One year ago I went through one of the most horrible experiences of my life. Finding out that I had an ectopic pregnancy, and the physical and emotional stress that caused left some pretty big emotional scars. Today is the 1 year anniversary of finding this out, and a year from when the worst of it really started.

December 4th was the day I found out I was pregnant using a home test. We had a holiday party that evening so I took the test to know whether or not I could drink. It was positive, and I was ecstatic! I went to the clinic the following Monday, December 7th, and they confirmed that I was indeed pregnant! I made my initial appointment with OBGYN for December 18th! Everything was perfect!

Then, December 15th I noticed some spotting in the evening and had some cramping so I went to the ER. The doctor told me that I was probably experiencing a miscarriage and that I needed to let it pass. She prescribed some pain medication and sent me home. The next night, even with pain medication, my pain was so bad that I could barely move. We called an ambulance and I was taken back to the ER. The doctor that night pretty much said the same as the other doctor, gave me more medication and sent me home. Though, he said to keep my appointment with OB so that I could be checked out to ensure everything was clearing up.

The day of December 17th, a nurse from the OBGYN clinic called to cancel my appointment. I explained to her everything that had been going on and informed her that I needed to keep the appointment. After arguing over it a little, she said she would call me back. Guess what? She never called back. So, getting worried, I got in touch with someone I knew who worked in the clinic. She told me to just show up at the appointment time and she'd take care of it.

I showed up that morning, had more blood work done (blood work had been done each time I went to the ER) and waited to find out what was happening. The doctor who agreed to see me did an internal ultrasound and we found that my pain was pretty limited to one side. My blood work had also showed that my levels had dropped, though not nearly as quickly as they should have with a normal miscarriage. The doctor finally stated that based on what she had seen, she believed I was experiencing an ectopic pregnancy.

I've found out that a lot of people don't know what that means. Well, it's when the fertilized egg gets stuck in the tube, which can be dangerous of not caught. It can cause damage to the tube, and in some cases, death. Thankfully they caught it and that I finally had someone who was willing to take the time to be sure before sending me back home.

Now that we knew what was happening, it was time to decide which route to take care of it. I had 2 options, I could have surgery or get a shot of methotrexate to ensure clearing of the tube. Surgery is risky anyway, but that early of a pregnancy they may not have been able to find the sac and I could have had my entire tube removed, making it that more difficult to become pregnant in the future. The shot was a better option, as it left little scar tissue and didn't require any cutting.

The shot, though, is a drug they use for cemotherapy on cancer patients. Side effects were extensive, and I think I felt them all. I was weak and sick for days, could barely get out of bed without getting dizzy and winded. I felt ill constantly and could do nothing about it. Plus, all the emotions I was going through from knowing that I was losing the baby we had tried for, it was just an awful time.

Now, it's been a year and I feel almost the same this year as I did last year. My body has been under a lot of stress, infections that are causing bigger issues, and all regarding my baby making parts. I had my IUD removed last week, which apparently caused an infection, leading to PID (Pelvic Inflammatory Disease). So, I was just in the ER the other night with pain and heavy bleeding, and today I am still fighting the pain.

I know it's not the same kind of pain, and no where near as emotional of an issue, but it has been a painful reminder of everything. I almost feel that if it wasn't for all of this now, I wouldn't be having as hard of a time with my emotions. I would still be very sad, but would I be THIS brought down by it? It's a lot on my mind and have had a rough day, though I am trying to be strong! For my boys, my husband and myself! God has brought me through this last year, and because of Him, I am going to make it through all of this!

Sent from God!

Sometimes people are put in your life for short periods of time, long periods of time or for forever. Though, there is someone who has been part of my life off and on since 2003. We met while we were both in the military and were friends right away. We've had really great times together as friends, but we've also had times of not being friends. Through our ups and downs, we somehow find ourselves back together, even if only through the internet and phone!

I think a lot of our ups were because we do share a lot in common. Our goals and dreams have the same desired outcome, a happy and healthy family and a life we can be proud of. Though,a lot of our downs are due to that as well. For a long time we had different thoughts on how to reach those goals, and sometimes those thoughts collided and caused for some clashing of personalities. Though, now we seem be on the same page and the same sort of ideas on how to reach our goals.

Now, a little background before I dive right into whats going on right now. When I was leaving San Antonio to come to Germany, I had a going away party. Unfortunately Adrien had gotten sick and I let people know to give them the choice of still coming. She was pregnant and had her son to think about, so she said she probably wouldn't be able to make it with the family. Though, she said she'd try to stop by to at least see us off. She didn't. I was hurt, frustrated and took it WAY to personally. A couple days later, I wrote a blog on myspace, thinking she wouldn't see it, a over exaggerated the situation. Well, she did see it and talk about a blow out fight. It was bad. So bad that even when I sent her a message weeks later, she still wanted nothing to do with me. So for over a year and a half, we hadn't spoken to each other.

So, fast forward to about 5 months ago, when I decided to turn my life back over to Christ. I was getting all sorts of crazy signs, and answered prayers out of nowhere, and she happened to be one of them. A few weeks after I made this choice, I received a message from her. To be honest, when I first saw her name, I didn't even want to open it. I was nervous as to why after so long she'd write me, and worried about what it might say. Well, I opened it anyway, and it wasn't at all what I expected. It was her showing concern for something that had happened to me. I wrote back, but left it short and simple so that if that was all she wanted, it could be done, but she wrote back again. Responses getting longer and longer, and before I knew it, we were on the phone.

Well, now that we've been talking for a while and really getting to know each other again, I believe God has put her back in my life for a reason. She is a God fearing woman herself, and she's one that won't sugar coat her opinions for me. She will give me advice on how to live the life I want to live, and be brutally honest as to how I could change certain things I choose to do. The best thing is, she doesn't try to tell me that I have to change myself, just have to change choices I make. Some people might think this is too much, but she doesn't give unwanted advice, she does ask first, but when I want it, I take it. Sometimes brutal honesty is the best, and I know that I need it.

We've been through a lot together, so she knows my history and knows how quickly I can be thrown off when around the wrong people. She doesn't judge me for past choices, but is there now to help me make better choices. I hope we continue to be Sister's in Christ, as I think I could learn a lot from her and we could really be great friends now that we are both on the path to Heaven!

Crazy week

Whew. It's been a crazy week. My car broke down, started classes again, trying to get a semi-routine for me and the kids, appointments, trying to fit everything in and beat the weather. It's been quite interesting to say the least.

Now we think my car has been towed because it wasn't parked where we left it when Fil came home from work tonight. It's a good thing I decided not to go crazy for Christmas because it looks like we will be paying for that now. I just hope he doesn't get into any trouble since there wasn't much we could really do right away.

I started class Tuesday. I am taking English Composition 1, so lots of work in the weeks to come. The good thing is that we get a holiday break for a couple weeks, so a little extra time on my second paper! For the 5 week class, we have 2 discussions and a quiz every week plus 2 papers, the first one due week 2 and 3, second one due week 4 and 5. With that short break, should be pretty easy to accomplish. Will update more as grading starts.

I am not a routine kind of person, but I have been trying to keep at least a general routine for the kids. They haven't really taken naps much since we have been home, so keeping them busy during the day is a must. With the weather being super crazy, we haven't been able to get out as much as I'd like, but we will soon!

I've had a couple of appointments that I wasn't sure I'd make, but thankfully I did. I have more next week, and will probably have more scheduled soon. Don't worry, nothing important, just trying to get caught up on stuff we missed while we were in the states. Darien still needs his 4yr check up, WIC, all that stuff. Hopefully we can get it all done soon so that I can quit worrying about it all.

The weather has been so crazy here. Snowing, rain, ice. Just can't really tell hour to hour how the weather is going to be. Road conditions have gone back and forth between decent and horrible, so lots of delays and school closures. It's been nuts. I need to get outside and take pictures, because it really is like a winter wonderland here! It's really pretty to look at, but a pain in the butt to deal with.

Other than that, not much happening here. But stay tuned, my life always gets interesting!

Good people in the world

Being from Florida, I had never dealt with snow before. Last winter was my first experience, though I limited that experience. I refused to drive in it, even if it was good driving conditions, unless I absolutely had no other choice. Which, most of the time, I had a choice and chose not to. I do love to look at it, but hate the thought of shoveling it. Luckily Filip can do all that, but if I had to, I'd probably have some really pissed off neighbors.

This year I decided to be a little more open. I wasn't going to let myself be stranded at home simply because there was some snow and slush on the ground. So, of course, the day I decide to venture out with the kids is the day my car wants to be retarded again. Filip has done so much trying to get it fixed for me, but nothing he does seems to make any difference. It's just getting worse and worse, this time dying on my in traffic and not starting back up.

I was at a light, a very busy light, about to turn left onto a main street through our town. Just before it turned green, the car sputtered and died. Before, when it used to do that, I had enough time to rev the engine a little so that it wouldn't die out on me, but this time it was so quick I didn't have the time to do that. I tried turning it on at least 10 times, and finally, it did as long as I was holding the gas pedal. But the moment I let go of the gas, it died, not letting me get it anywhere.

So, there I am, holding up traffic, surely with some angry people in a hurry. Thankfully, a random person decided to pull over and ask if I needed any help. I agreed that I did, because what am I really going to be able to do with 2 kids in a broke down car in the middle of the road? He gave me a push so that I could park the car. He then offered us a ride home.

Now, I am the person who is truly paranoid of everyone and their intentions. So, at first I was extremely nervous that he would just randomly offer me a ride, but then I realized that Filip was in a class today and the chances of reaching him were slim to none. So, instead of waiting there, in the cold with the boys, I took him up on his offer to take us home.

I was extremely nervous the whole time, praying that he wasn't a crazy person wanting to take us and harm us, and thankfully, he wasn't. He was truly a nice person, doing a nice thing for someone in need. I actually feel bad now for being so paranoid, but I just couldn't help that. It's given me a new look on people, and hopefully will help remind me that there really are still good people in the world. Being paranoid won't go away over night, but having encounters like that will help me not be so quick to jump to bad thoughts of others.

I would say, even with the car breaking down, today was a pretty awesome day! I got over my fears of driving in the snow, had a nice day out with my boys and was shown by a complete stranger that there are still people out there who are just nice and helpful. I appreciate him, I am sure my kids would if they understood, and I am sure Filip does too!

Chaos

Lately my writing has been short, chaotic and not well revised. I am hoping that I will get back to the better writing I know I can do very soon! Between school, traveling and now, trying to get back into the swing of things at home, I just haven't had the time or focus to do as well as I'd like. Just bear with me as I get through the adjustment of being back home, and through the sickness that is now running through my house.

Coming home has been great, but now, because of the drastic difference in weather, we are getting sick. I woke up this morning feeling completely gross, and the kids are sounding a lot worse. I should be used to this, anytime I ever travel I end up sick. Especially on long trips, and I would say that the last 2 or so weeks that I was in the US, I definitely was on a long trip. In that time, we'd gone from FL to GA, GA to NC and NC to VA. Then came back here. That's quite a bit for such a short time period.

Florida barely cooled off before we left. It was getting cool at night, but day temperatures were still in the high 70's-low 80's. GA was much different, though a bit cooler at night. NC was much cooler all around, but nice enough in the day time that a light long-sleeve shirt was enough. VA was about the same, until the last couple of days when a jacket was necessary unless standing in direct sunlight. So, coming home to snow and temperatures in the teens has definitely thrown our immune systems for a loop.

I knew going into the trip that I'd be dealing with the FL heat and the VA cold, so packing was interesting. I had to pack summer clothes and winter clothes to make sure we were clothed properly in each place we were going. It was quite a bit, especially with as long as we were going to be gone. And, let me say that traveling with that much stuff, 2 small children and doing it by myself was quite a task. A task that I will never willingly do again. If I had taken less, that would have been one thing, but I took WAY too much.

We ended up packing 3 good size boxes to mail to ourselves. I'd accumulated enough stuff that we had to, otherwise we'd not have gotten everything back. This is including getting 2 new large suitcases to travel with on the way home. Though, one suitcase I went with got trashed in FL, but it was a smaller one. At least Filip was with me on the way back because I don't know if I would have survived that trip alone.

Now we are home, sick and trying to get back into our own routines. We have so much that we want to do, along with getting ready for Christmas, so it's been interesting. I think we are adjusting pretty well, other than the colds, and it's just a matter of time before we are completely on track!

All sorts of things

What a week this has been. We just got home Tuesday, though it feels like we have been here for weeks. We've been so busy, trying to get so much done. Christmas shopping, reorganizing, etc. With Christmas right around the corner, we have so much to do.

I think, except for the stockings, we are pretty much done shopping for the kids. They aren't getting many things this year, but what they are getting are bigger items that I am sure will make up for lack of quantity. I am super excited for them to see what they get!!! I know their faces are going to light up when the open their gifts!

The nice thing, no matter what we are doing for them, my family is also sending stuff for them! So, even though they aren't getting a whole lot of stuff to open from us, and Santa, they will have more from grandma, grampy Bill (my mom's b/f), granny (mom's b/f's mom) and aunt Shannon! And if it's anything like last year, they will get more than enough!

I really do love the holidays! Christmas for me has become a whole lot more meaningful since having children, but even more so this year! With Christ in my life, there really is a whole new meaning to Christmas! I am glad to be able to share that with my children this year! I hope they grow up knowing Christ, and living with him in their lives!

I have yet to make my beef stew. With all our running around, I just haven't had enough time. Though, tomorrow, no matter what, I am getting it done! I have talked about it so much, and wanted it so badly, that I am not leaving the house tomorrow until after I have it at least cooking! Although, I don't think we are doing anything tomorrow that requires us to leave. I want to get the Christmas tree up, hang some lights and just have a quiet day at home with my awesome little family!

We went to Filip's work holiday party! They had some raffles, and normally we NEVER win anything. We went expecting the same to happen this year, and guess what?? We won $300 towards a trip booked with RTT!!! (For those who don't know what RTT is, it's the base travel office here!) How awesome is that??? I haven't quite decided what to use it for, but there are a couple ideas!

We may have some friends coming to see us Sept/Oct time and we'd love to be able to take them to Paris. That's a good idea for the money, and this way we can treat them without breaking the bank doing it! The other idea I have is for our Anniversary! It just seems like it would take a weeks trip to get the most out of it. So, we are going to be discussing it some and see how we want to use it. Either way, I know I am excited because this basically means we are guaranteed to go somewhere!

Whew, it's cold

WOW. It's pretty darn cold outside! Snow on the ground, freezing temperatures and lots more snow predicted. I knew I was coming home to this, but I haven't quite adjusted to it yet. It seems like it's starting a whole lot sooner than it did last year, and getting a lot more at once than last year. It's very pretty though, just wish I didn't have to go out in it.

One thing, about being gone for so long, is coming back and needing to make tons of appointments that I wasn't able to do while in the states. I've already made 3 appointments and still have a handful or so more to make. This pretty much means that once my car is completely fixed, I have to drive myself to this stuff.

Now, I am from FL. I had never even seen snow until last year. So, driving in it, ha. I am definitely not comfortable with it, so I will be doing as much as I can to either have the hubby take me or get everything done around the same time. I got away with only having to drive a handful of times last year, but not so sure I can make that happen this year. We will see.

With the colder weather comes warmer foods! The one thing I do love is stew. I will be making my beef stew this weekend! I can't wait! I already have everything I need, and I can already taste it!

I also plan on working on some little projects with the kids. Went out last night and got some construction paper and stuff to make decorations for the tree. We are also going to bake cupcakes and cookies together! We are going to be the non-traditional family who leaves cupcakes for Santa! Though, once Darien sees what Santa got for him, he will thank us for leaving cupcakes!!!

Anyway, it's cold outside and I have lots of stuff to finish up before our Holiday party tonight! Hope everyone is staying warm and enjoying their days! Until next time!

We're Home!

Sitting here in my bed, freshly showered, I remember just how much I really love this place. Yes, the shower and the bed are what remind me of it. Maybe I have just gotten used to it, but it just seems like no one else had a shower that could compare. No worries about when the hot water is going to run out, perfect water pressure, and nice quietness to soak up along with it!

My bed, well, who doesn't miss their own bed after being away from it for a while. Just sitting in it makes me want to close my eyes and fall asleep, though I am fighting it so not to fall asleep TOO early. It's just so darn comfortable, and now with the new down comforter we have, it's just that much better! I am loving it!

Tomorrow starts our real lives again. Hubby goes back to work and I go back to being alone with the kids all day. I am definitely not complaining, but it's a lot since we just got back today. I am looking forward to having the boys all to myself for the day and getting to really spend some quality time with them.

One stop we made before coming home was to the BX. I picked up some muffin pans, cookie cutters and a Christmas candy making kit. Stuff we can use to do different projects and activities together over the next couple weeks! I am really excited because Darien just loves doing these kinds of things and I love to see my boys smile! I think Adrien will be more about making the decorations for the tree, which will go up this weekend!

I am glad to be home! Now, it's time to really enjoy my own space, my own time and the quiet that surrounds me! Night!

Getting ready

Now that Thanksgiving is over, we are trying to prepare for Christmas. Well, as much as we can without being at home. It's going to come quick, so having a good plan for what needs to get done when we do get home is what I really need to work on. The earliest flight they have is Monday, so we probably won't be home until Tuesday at the earliest.

The Christmas tree will be the first thing, after we get settled back in. I will be getting some things so that the kids and I can make some decorations for their half of tree. I will also hang up some lights around our living room windows, like we did last year. Nothing fancy, but enough to make it festive for the kids.

I also have to finish up my shopping. I am so horrible, every year I wait until the last minute to do that. I actually did better this year and have some things ordered already, but need to get the smaller things when we are at home.

I am super excited for this Christmas with the kids. Not only because of the things we are surprising the kids with, but because this will be the first Christmas that we really focus on the true meaning of Christmas and share that with our children. I think sharing that with them, and bringing Christ into our lives will make this holiday so much more than it ever has been!

I am ready to get home, back to my own space. I have enjoyed getting to see all our family and friends, but it's time to get back to our real lives now. Hopefully all goes smoothly and we get on the flight Monday! I probably won't write again until after we get home, but I will get back on here first chance I get! Hope everyone has a great weekend!

The little things

As we roll into Thanksgiving morning, I am even more thinking of the things I am thankful for in my life. God and great family and friends are at the top of the list, but there are so many things I am glad I have. The little things, that we do take for granted, are sometimes the most important things.

Food, water, trees, mountains, grass and other things that we see everywhere are just some of the things I am appreciating today. The beauty that surrounds me is just to hard to ignore. How come I haven't taken the time to truly appreciate these things before? Probably because I was so wrapped up in myself and never just took the time to notice them. Well, the last week or so, I have taken the time to notice and have a new appreciation for them.

Sunshine is something else I once took for granted. I used to be annoyed by the bright sun, and heat that radiated from it. Now, ever since living in Germany, I enjoy the sunshine whenever I get it. Yes, Germany does have sunshine, but during the winter it's a lot more scarce that in other areas I have lived.

Today was a chilly day, but when the sun was shining, it was a beautiful day. I soaked it up as much as I could, in between 10 kids, cooking and not feeling well. I know when I get back to Germany, I may not get to see much of it until the Spring, so soaking it up here while I can.

Toys. Yes, I am thankful for toys. Having a house filled with 10 children, ranging from 1-16, toys have been a huge factor in keeping our sanity. Along with the older children, the little ones were completely occupied and never was there a dull moment for anyone.

Laughter and tears. I am thankful for both, as emotion is a way of communication. I love hearing my children laugh, making the day even brighter and warmer no matter if the sun is shining or not. Hearing them cry isn't something I necessarily like, but it's a way that I am made aware when something is wrong. I am very thankful that they can express frustration, fear, pain or anger by crying.

I could keep going, but I am extremely tired and have an early morning. I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving.

School update!!!

I keep forgetting to post more about school. I have actually told myself a few times that I need to write an update, but I never remember. Well, school is going great and I am excited to see how it continues.

Starting school, after being out of high school for over 7 years, was quite frightening. I wasn't that great in high school, so I was worried I wouldn't catch on too easily to college level assignments. Well, I have no only surprised myself, I have proven to myself that I really can do anything I set my mind to.

The last time I wrote, I was still in my first class. Well, I continued doing what I had to do, feeling nervous the entire way. The other students would comment on my work, making me feeling pretty good about how I was doing. Though, when it came to the paper, I was feeling like I had no idea what I was doing. I was really concerned I wouldn't get full credit on the writing assignment, but I did and I passed the class with a 98%!!!

Class number 2 started immediately after, which was nerve racking. This class, the paper we had to write had to be in APA format, which I had no idea what that even was. I worked hard, did my best and just tried. The discussions were a lot harder work, and the other students didn't seem to really respond to my work the same as the first class did. I had a couple that would comment, but not too many.

Then, in week 3 of the class, I get an e-mail from the course instructor letting me know that I am doing great with my work and to keep it up. That felt really amazing. I had been so worried that I was just really doing the minimum, but knowing that the instructor had noticed my effort was awesome to me.

I really started to get worried about the paper when the feedback I got was saying that certain things were APA style and I thought I had done it all correctly. I was getting nervous, though for no reason. Finally, I asked Filip for help, which I should have done sooner, and he showed me how to fix it. Other than those little things, I had a pretty strong paper. I made a few word choice changes, but that was about it. Overall, the general feedback of the paper was that it was strong and made good points.

I was so nervous turning the paper in for the final time, waiting for that final grade. When I was finally able to log on and see, I had gotten full credit for the paper, with great comments about my writing! I felt so great!!! That put me at a final grade of 96%!!! Though, in college, the number doesn't matter, I just know I have a 4.0 GPA as it stands, and that's mighty exciting!!!

I haven't started my next class yet, decided to put it on hold until we get back to Germany. With the holidays and traveling to see family all over, it just wasn't a good time to start an English class. I'd like to make sure I can focus and really give it my entire effort, and I wouldn't be doing that right now. I am excited to get back to it though, as I am finding that it can be mighty interesting. I will keep everyone informed!!!

Facebook

Tonight I am going to write about how thankful I am for Facebook. It may be a weird thing to be thankful for, but it's been a pretty amazing thing for me. Without internet at all, I'd have very little contact with family and friends while living in Germany. Facebook has just been the major tool to keep me connected to everyone, and reconnecting with people from years ago.

With Facebook, I have been able to stay in touch, share photos and chat with family and friends I want to have constant contact with. Sharing pictures means that they can see how our family is growing and changing. We chat and send messages keep up with each others lives. I think I would be pretty lost without it.

It's also allowed me to connect with people from the past, which has been quite amazing. People I haven't seen or heard from for YEARS are able to contact me and we start building new relationships again. Like Jennifer, the light that led me back to Christ. Without Facebook, she may not have reached out to me like she did, and I am extremely grateful for that.

There's also Sara, Jennifer (a different Jennifer than mentioned above) and other people that were part of my past that found me on Facebook and reached out to me. Sara is someone who was from the recent past and just happened to message me, sparking a new relationship. Jennifer is someone I hadn't seen for 13 or so years, and we've been chatting.

It's so crazy because I am finding that most people have also taken steps to change their own lives, and are people who seem to be a good force in my life. The people I think would be a negative force are the ones I ignore and try to keep out. I have been able to open up to people through Facebook, which allows me to feel connected to people even when there are hundreds of miles between us.

Having Facebook has definitely helped keep me in touch with people, and allowed me to have some sort of relationship with the people who I want in my life. I am thankful for that, and will continue to count my blessings that I have that tool available to me.

People to be thankful for

As you may be able to tell, I am focusing on things I am thankful for this week. I am glad to have this time to sit and focus on them, though I am going to try to make it more of a daily thing rather than once a year. Even through the hard times, my life is definitely something to be thankful for, especially when I know just how much worse it could be. I've made a lot of bad choices in life, but I've also made a lot of good choices which has led me to where I am now.

Today, I want to focus on the people in my life that I am truly thankful for. The first, and most important person is God. With him in my life, I have been able to have a fresh start, not only for myself, but for and with my family. His unconditional love and forgiveness has been a major blessing for me and everyone around me!

My husband, who has been absolutely amazing to me. He has been a rock in my life, no matter how bad things have gotten for me. He has been with me through my best and worst moments of life the last 5 years, and he will never realize how truly thankful I am to have him as my husband.

My children, who fill my life with laughter and joy. Having them has brought new meaning to my life, and I enjoy every minute of being their mommy.

My mom, who has been an amazing shoulder and influence in my life. She is one of the few people I can rely on no matter the circumstances and know she will always be there for me.

My sister, who even though we quarrel like sisters, has always had my back. Through good and bad, she has been there for me. We are not only sisters, we are friends. Life has definitely been a roller coaster of emotions with her, but I am grateful that she is my sister and couldn't imagine my life without her in it.

My friend Laura, who I have been friends with since middle school. We've had our ups and downs, but she has truly been the best friend a person can have. I know I can tell her anything, good or bad, and not be judged or mocked. We can confide our hard times in each other, but share our good times together!

My friend Penny, who even though I don't talk to nearly as much as I'd like, has always been a good influence in my life. She has always had my best interests at heart and doesn't tell me what I want to hear, but what I NEED to hear. She's one of those people that I am blessed to know, and even more blessed to be able to call a friend.

My friend Jennifer, who has been a light and leader in my life. With her guidance and support, I have been led back to God and his ways. She has been someone I can call (or write) when things are tough and know that my secrets are safe and not be judged. She's been a driving force in me wanting to be a better person and to not take everything so seriously. No matter the topic or circumstance, I can tell her anything and know that I will get an ear to listen, good Godly advice and no bad judgement even if she doesn't agree with my choices. She opened up her house and life to my family, showing me that not everyone is how I perceived the general population to be. If she hadn't stepped in when she did, sharing her love for Christ and what it did in her life, I don't think I'd be where I am today! I am very thankful for her and everything she has done for me and my life!

Other family and friends that have been there for me. I would be here all night if I tried to name every single person by name, but know that I am thankful for anyone and everyone who has ever passed through my life. Every experience and encounter with people is part of what made me who I am today. Every person made some kind of difference in my life, and those differences have brought me to a place that I am happy for all of it! I may never talk to some again, whether their choice or mine, but I will never forget what they taught me in their own ways to help me through life. Whether the lessens were learned in good or bad, every lessen has it's purpose and every person was there to teach me a lessen. So, if you are reading this, you have probably at some point known me personally and I am grateful for the lessens I learned through knowing you.

Take the time to really give thanks to those people in your life that you are thankful for. Let them know how thankful you are, and try to remind them more than just this time of year. Until next time.

Thankful for things I don't have

Just as everyone I know, I have the bad habit of getting caught up in the things I want but don't have. Too many times I have allowed myself to become depressed or belittle myself to gain those things, almost always finding that I never wanted that to begin with. Sometimes I like it for a little bit, but I quickly realize that I was trying to fill a void that still wasn't filled by that particular thing.

I have even been the person to completely change my life around, whether good or bad, thinking that I would gain something on the other side. It doesn't always happen that way and I am thankful that my life has still worked out to be where it is today. I don't want to say that I have any regrets, but I do realize that some choices were a bit rash and not thought about thoroughly.

You've heard the saying "the grass isn't always greener on the other side". Well, I believe it, and as I recently read somewhere "The grass does look greener on the other side, because it's fertilized with bull$%^*". Not exactly a phrase some people may like, but it is true.

I may not have all the things I would like to have, but when I really sit and think about it all, I have a lot more than I deserve. I haven't been the greatest person, I have lied, cheated, stolen and many other things that make me a sinner. Though, God, with his wonderful love for me (and every person), has blessed my life.

Since I do know that I am the person to focus on things I don't have, I am going to do that here. I am going to list things that I don't have, the only difference from my norm is that these are things I am thankful for. Maybe if I can start thinking of those things, I can see even more how wonderful my life really is.

The things I don't have, but am thankful for not having are:

A husband that beats me, lies to me and cheats on me
Kids that are out of control and bad behavior all of the time
Friends that use me every chance they get
Unpaid bills

It's a very short list, though I am sure there is many more I could list. It's just an example of how I am helping myself look at the positives of my life rather than the negative. No ones life is perfect, but having God, an amazing husband, great kids and awesome family and friends are what make life worth living!

Thankful for...

With Thanksgiving, my absolute favorite holiday, fast approaching I thought I'd write a little about the things I am thankful for. Especially with some of the recent events of my life, I am finding myself thankful for things I once took for granted. My life is far from perfect, but I have many blessings to thank the good Lord for.

The first thing I am thankful for is the love of Christ. Knowing that no matter what I have done, I can enjoy the unconditional love He gives me.

I am extremely thankful for my husband. He has been one of the most loving, forgiving, faithful, honest and just amazing men I have ever known. Our journey together hasn't been easy, and will always have good and bad, but he's worth it. I don't think I have ever felt as grateful for him as I do now, and I can't believe I got so darn lucky to find a man who takes me with all my flaws and still loves me enough to go to the lengths he has gone to show me! He has truly been amazing!

I am also thankful for my children. They have brought laughs, love and joy into our lives. Every day the continue to amaze me, and filling my heart with more and more love. They are the greatest kids anyone could ask for, and I am so lucky to be their mommy!

I am thankful for the family and friends who have truly stood by me. Those that are there even when I am acting a fool, just being there for me and letting me figure things out for myself. The friends and family that listen and open their hearts and arms when needed, and say just the right things that help me through whatever is going on. Without them, I'd be lost somewhere in my own world.

I am thankful for all the men and women who give their lives for our country. All the military and their families, constantly sacrificing every day for the freedoms of all Americans.

I am thankful for the fact we do have an income, food and shelter. We are far from rich, but we survive and get to live a little. I am able to buy things for my children that they want, even some for myself. Many people take this ability for granted, but I am blessed that we are not struggling everyday just to feed ourselves.

I haven't listed every single thing I am thankful for, though I'd be here all night if I tried. I am blessed to have the things I have, and will forever be thankful for the things I have.

Busy on vacation!

Busy, busy, busy. That's been my weekend. I am finally getting a chance to sit down and do something other than get right back up or school work. Taking a vacation in my world means doing more than I do at home. Sound crazy? I might be, slightly.

I got to Florida on Friday when Jennifer's hubby drove me and the kids to Macon and my mom met us there to pick us up. The kids were so whinny on the trip, once we were with my mom. That made it seem like a longer trip that it was, though still not as bad as the flight over.

We got in around 3:30pm or so, and my best friend, Laura, came over to see us!!! She's such an awesome friend to be one of the first people to greet me!!! anywho... We played with the kids, had dinner, made some plans for her day off and then we did baths and went to bed.

Saturday, yesterday, we had to take mom's rental back and go to the store for some snacks and stuff for the kids. I also meant to get baby shampoo, so not to burn their eyes with regular shampoo, and forgot it. That made for an interesting bath time. We had an easy dinner, but bed time was frightful. They went to sleep fairly easily, though I moved them and Adrien woke up. Well, that was around 11pm, and he was awake until nearly 4am.

It wouldn't have been so bad if I didn't have plans for today, but I had a wedding to go to. Thankfully I still made it, but I am very exhausted, running on just 4 hours of sleep. When I got back, the kids wanted to eat so I had to get them dinner. They had dinner already, but I think because it was pretty early, they weren't quite ready to eat then.

After dinner, mom gave them a bath for me and got them ready for bed. I got them all tucked in, though it took Darien quite a while to fall asleep. Then, Adrien fell out of the chair he was asleep in and woke up. Fearing another episode like last night, I tried to leave him alone in hopes he would go back to sleep, after making sure he was okay. I walked outside and when I came back in, Grampy Bill (my mom's boyfriend) was holding him and just rocking him. He finally got him quiet and laid back down and out like a light.

In between all of this, I am trying to get a head start on my second class, which starts Tuesday. I want to make sure I stay on top of everything so I don't get behind. Visiting can get in the way at times, so if I am ahead, I have no excuses.

So, this is really the first time I have actually sat and been able to do more than quickly reply to someone or do more than class work. It's definitely a nice little break, though I will definitely be trying to make plenty of time for this while I am here. My family is awesome, though I need a break from them all once in a while.

I am hoping to get some really great pictures of the kids soon. Keeping checking back for updates on our visit and pictures of my great family and friends!

Guilt Trip

I have had tons of guilt trips in my life, even from my own kids, but the worst was tonight from a 4 year old who isn't even mine. Being here for the last 2 weeks has given the kids time to connect and get to love each other. They have played well, and had lots of fun together! I think McKenzie and Darien would grow up best friends if we lived close by.

They really have played so well together. They are like best friends after just two weeks. Darien doesn't say as much about the "girl friend" thing as he had with most other little girls, so I do think he feels much differently about her than he has any other friend he has had. It's so cute because you can tell he just loves her to death, but it's definitely different.

I think, if we lived near here, they'd be the two to grow up as best friends and never have that attraction to each other. It would be more like brother and sister and just be an awesome friendship for them. It does make me wish we could be closer, for them, and maybe someday we will be. I'd love for Darien to have that close of a friend and it be for life.

But tonight, when Jennifer was explaining to her that we had to leave tomorrow, she cried and cried. She doesn't understand why we can't stay forever and doesn't want us to leave. It was so sad and pitiful that I started to tear up. It's the kind of guilt trip that makes you want to stay just to make a little girl happy.

I really hope that we get the chance to come back soon. Maybe, if we get a base near by, we can take an extended weekend to visit. Though, I am going to try to do video calls and stuff with them so that the kids can stay in touch and hopefully stay friends even through the distance.

They really are just too darn cute together :)

I Appreciate Everything!

It's been so crazy the last couple weeks. Traveling from Germany to the US with 2 kids and no husband was CRAZY. Then coming and staying in GA with a friend and meeting a bunch of new people and keeping a pretty busy schedule. Four kids, church, lunches, dinners and other get gatherings. It's been a pretty crazy couple of weeks.

The people I have met here have been nothing less than amazing. It's so weird to finally be in a place where I feel completely accepted and loved no matter my past, issues or self image. People who can finally see past all my flaws and look deeper and see that there is more to me than I show on the surface. It's just a nice reminder that there are actually people who can accept me and will, even if it's been a while since I had met any.

Jennifer has been a wonderful host! Putting up with me and the boys, and I am sure stressing out a little with all four kids. We may have known each other for 23 years, but we weren't actually friends until just a couple weeks ago when she reached out to me. So, just that she had offered to help me by picking us up and allowing us to stay with her was nothing short of AWESOME! It's definitely been awesome getting to know her better and making a great friend in the process. I just hope I haven't stressed her out too badly.

The kids seem to have a good time together, with some fighting in between. Though, when you have 2 two-year olds and a 3 and 4 year old, they are bound to butt heads now and then. I think they have been under a lot of stress from the rapid change of scenery, and from other people seeming to have taken over their house. It's natural for kids to act out, and we are all hoping that everything calms once things go back to normal. Except, things aren't going to be normal for my kids for a while.

How can I really show my appreciation to Jennifer for being so kind and opening her house and life up to me and the boys? I've tried to at least help with housework and pay her back for some expenses, but I just don't feel like its been enough. I just hope that someday, in some way I can repay her for the amazing time I have had here.

Tomorrow should be a pretty busy day, though I am hoping to be able to help her get the house cleaned up and not leave a huge mess behind when we leave Friday morning. That's the one thing I do not like feeling, like I came, ate, slept and just left not caring what mess we are leaving behind. I owe it to her, and her whole family, to do that.

For now though, it's time for bed. Tomorrow we have Bible study, got to make some dip for CR, pack our stuff back up and get ready to head out bright and early Friday morning!

Euphoria

Today is now going to mark another "birthday" for me! The one major difference between this day and my actual birthday is that I chose this day to be "reborn" through Christ. It was very emotional, in a happy way, and just an amazing day all around.

The week leading up, and even the weeks prior once I knew it was going to happen, I was excited and nervous. Yesterday and today my nerves were so on edge I just didn't know what to expect and even thought about changing my mind. Man, I am sure glad I didn't.

Of course, once we were at the church, the nerves just got worse. When I knew it was time to change, again, nerves got worse. When Pastor Scott said my name, the nerves again got worse. I remember clearly most of it, but at some point everything just went a little fuzzy and I couldn't tell you what was going on around me.

I climbed into the tub and sat down. Pastor Scott was talking and giving the background story of Jennifer and me to those watching. Then, he asked the 2 most important questions, and that's where it all went kinda fuzzy. I felt like I was going to cry. I was extremely emotional and nervous. Jennifer dunked me and it felt like everything was just going in SUPER SLOW motion, but in a good way. I got out of the tub and just about froze.



I remember that, but I don't remember anything I was doing. I just remember feeling like I was going to cry. Then, I saw the photos and saw something I definitely did not expect. I was smiling almost to the point of laughing. WOW. I really didn't think I was smiling, let alone that big of a smile.

I can't really explain the feeling that came over me when I was being baptized, other than it was a feeling of euphoria that I have never experienced before in my lifetime. It was like a sudden gush of pure pleasure and happiness with a cloud of calm just all around me. I heard absolutely no noise, everything seemed silent, even if only for a couple seconds. It felt a lot like being the only person in the room and God baptizing me himself. It was really something that just can't be put into words.

After, we got all the ladies in a photo that I have had the pleasure of meeting and sharing with while here, and the ladies that I feel will be a huge part of my new life. These women have not only reached out to me in a way that most people would never do, they have really been encouraging and amazing to me throughout this entire process. Just amazing people that I am definitely blessed to now have as friends!



This is definitely going to be a day I cherish for the rest of my life! I will celebrate this day with purpose! My life now belongs to Jesus and as long as I let him, he will continue to do amazing things in my life! Happy Birthday to me :)

God's work?!

Have you ever had something happen that just feels like God speaking directly to you or answering a prayer very vividly? Ever since I decided to turn my life back over to Him, things just keep happening to make me believe he's just been waiting for me. It feels like he keeps giving me answers to prayers that I haven't even prayed in a long time. It also feels like he is giving me the peace of mind on some things to know that it isn't as bad as I believed it to be.

What is it that has been happening? Well, lots of stuff. The first and most important is that he sent me someone to remind me that he is here and wants a relationship with me. He sent her to me 23 years ago, and though I've known her all along, she has only recently become someone I can truly call a great friend!

Then, he answered the prayer of me wanting to come visit her and her church. After watching the podcasts from the church services, I thought that it would be awesome to see it in person. I was so moved by the things I was hearing, and just wondered if it would even be possible. Traveling from Germany to the US can get expensive, so it was a matter of if we could afford the trip. He answered that prayer by having this person offer to pick me up from where I could fly into on a SpaceA flight (cheap-free flights for military and their families when there is available space). That took a large financial burden off the trip right there. Then it was just a matter of how to get back and that was worked out by my mom coming to get me and going to FL to see family. How awesome!

Then, there is someone from my past that I hurt more than I have hurt anyone, EVER. My ex husband. I hadn't seen or heard from him since shortly after our divorce, but out of the blue he sent me a message. The message stated that he had been doing some sole searching and needed to let me know that he forgave me (which if you know the story, thats a HUGE deal) and wanted to let me know. That right there lifted a whole ton of bricks off my chest and gave me some peace with that.

I've had a couple of people just go out of there way to help me and really just be there for me through this whole process. It's amazing the people you can find when you look in the right places. I've had a lot of great people reach out to me, letting me know that there are people out there, whether they know me or not, that care about me and where I am headed. That just amazes me, especially after the experiences I have had with people in general. It's definitely given me a new look on people.

Then, out of the blue, a friend from my past, with whom I had an extremely explosive blow out with, sent me a message. At first I was very awkward about it and wasn't sure what to think or say. Though, after writing back and forth a bit, I realize that I should be more open to giving and receiving apologies. It's just so amazing that the opportunities are presenting themselves so soon.

With all these amazing things happening, I can't help but to believe that this is for real and that as long as I truly put my trust and faith in God, things will only continue to get better. I am so excited to see the other good things in store for my life!

Having a BLAST!

Hanging at Jennifer's has been AWESOME! The kids have been getting along GREAT and I have had a good time catching up with Jenn! We are now closing in on the end of day 2 and I am definitely glad we came!

Today has been nothing but play for the kids. The boys have been non stop since we all got up this morning. We've played outside, ran around the house, played tickle monster and just the kids doing their own thing. So much laughter and yelling!!!

Jennifer and I were chit chatting outside this morning and came back in the house after hearing the kids knocking on the windows. When we walked in, we realized that it was Darien who was knocking and didn't see the other 2 boys. She could hear them so went to check on them thinking they were in one of the bedrooms. They weren't there and this is what she found :



Apparently they decided they wanted to play in the water. This doesn't surprise me in the least with Adrien. He threw a HUGE fit when we took them out, but was quickly distracted with toys.

After having lunch, we decided to take the kids outside! Riding the bikes and hot wheels, they had a blast. It was so much fun just sitting out there watching them all have a great time together. With kids and toys, there is inevitably going to be some fighting. With them, so far, its been as easy as calling one of their names to get them to stop and move on. Such great kids! Here is what they look like having fun:






It's been a great time so far!!! Can't wait to see what else is in store for us while we are here! Definitely going to be more pictures soon!!!

WHEW... what a trip

So, traveling from Germany to the US alone with two children was NOT my brightest idea. Though, now that we are here and the hassle is over, it was definitely worth it!

We made our first attempt Saturday afternoon. We got our boarding passes and even made it through security before being told the flight was rescheduled for the following morning due to a fuel leak. I wasn't too happy, but what could I do? Just show back up the next day and hope we got out.

We got to the terminal the next morning and waited about 2 hours before even being able to go through security again. Then, waited about another hour or so to get on the bus to go to the plane. Then, got on the bus, drove out to the plane and had to wait about 30 minutes for them to clean out the lavatory. Got on the plane and it was about another 30 minutes before we even started to move. Quite a wait.




Now, just imagine me with 2 kids, a double stroller, 4 carry on bags, a sleeping bag, booster seat, blankets, pillows, sweaters and a lap top. Lots of stuff, not near enough hands. Though, very thankful for another couple with 2 older kids that helped me a great deal. It was definitely a stressful process.

Once we were in the air, it was pretty smooth sailing. Because we flew in a C-17, the kids got to get up and walk around and were even able to lay down on the floor. They did pretty well with it.





The flight was about 10 hours, and at the end of it, I think we were all about at our wits end. Getting ready for decent, Adrien was pretty irritated. He didn't like having to sit still, and just screamed. I ended up in tears. The couple who had been so awesome to help me, ended up noticing even though I was really trying to hide it, asked if they could take Adrien and help with him. I am not real big on letting random people have my kids, though I was thankful for the 2 minutes I got to breath.

They took him, and he screamed the whole time. I took just enough time to breath and regroup before taking him back. As soon as I got him back, he fell asleep in my arms until we landed.

We landed in a weather advisory, heavy rain and lightening within 5 miles. We have to wait another 30 minutes for Customs to come out and brief us and whatnot. Then, get off the plane to ride the bus to the terminal. Wait 30 minutes for luggage, and then find a way to the hotel.

A very nice retired couple offered to take us to the hotel since it was raining. As we are packing up the car, it starts pouring like no ones business. The back seat of the car was completely soaked, along with ALL of our stuff. Even some of the stuff inside the suitcases were wet because it just came down so hard and so fast.

We get to the hotel, and the rain had settled a little. After I got the kids inside and they were getting our bags, it began to pour again. That means, the stuff that was already soaked, got even more soaked. I wasn't able to use my laptop because everything was so wet.

The night went pretty easy, though. Got the kids relaxed and asleep by 1030. Darien and I were up around 530am, but Adrien slept until about 7. I think we were all fairly well rested and had a nice morning just hanging out.

THEN, I thought I'd have a meltdown. Because I flew right into the base and had a ride to the hotel, I had no reason to use a cab service. Well, thankfully I didn't have to because what a hassle that was.

I had a friend in town to get me, though I would have to go to the visitors center to get her on base, but that meant needing a ride up there. Then I thought I could just get a cab to take us and all our stuff and just meet them somewhere and go from there. Because of all our stuff, we needed a van or something of similar size. The few that had a van weren't available for 2 hours, another couldn't even get on base and the other I would have to call to let the gate know I called a cab. If I had to do this for a cab, why couldn't I just do that for my friend. Well, thats the military bases for ya.

So, finally I get a cab to come get me and take me to the gate to get my friend on base. Get there and had to wait a bit for them to get a fax of the insurance and registration. Because of the new way of doing things in GA, they aren't required to have those in the car and I didn't think to tell them before hand. Once they got that, we got on base and got all my stuff.

The trip from Charleston to Covington was pretty calm and smooth. Only 2 stops, and the kids barely made a fuss. Adrien slept for about half the ride, and Darien just watched movies. Very different from the flight.

But, I must say, even with all the hassle and headache, I am glad I decided to come. Just 1 day here and I already feel much better. The kids have just been playing and having fun with Jennifer's kids. They all seem to get along well, and keep each other busy.

Now we are getting ready to go to bed! Can't wait to update more with photos!!!

Just 1 week!!!

This is my last full week in Germany until December!!! I am hoping to get out of here early next week, and then its off to my awesome vacation with friends and family! First staying with a friend in GA, then to FL with my family, then up to VA with the hubby's family! I am so excited to get to see everyone!!!

When I was active duty, and even the first 2 years after I got out, I would see family at least twice a year. December 2008 was the last time I saw my family, and March 2009 was the last time we saw hubby's family. It was a little rough going from twice a year to not at all for almost 2 years. So, I am definitely glad I get to take this trip and spend some time with everyone!

I am going to miss my husband dearly, it's really too bad he can't go with us. But he will be meeting us in VA to see him family, so at least we have that! Then we will come back together!!! I just hope he can manage his laundry while I am gone.

So far there are all kinds of plans being made. While I am in GA, I will be busy going to church, getting baptized, attending CR, and other fun stuff! It's going to be a great time! In FL, we got Halloween Horror Nights, Silver Springs and other fun stuff while we are there! I can't wait.

Not too sure if much will go on in VA, but just getting to spend time with the family will be awesome! I see my family a lot more than the hubby's, so it will be nice to get that time with them. The boys will get to see and play with all their cousins and just have fun!!!

So, for the rest of the week, I have cleaning, laundry, packing and planning to do. Along with my school work, so I will be a busy bee all week! I know its going to go by faster than I realize since there is still so much to get done. Hopefully I can get it all done so that the hubby doesn't have to worry about much once I am gone. Guess I better get back to it!

Going on a Date!

Today has been all about cleaning up and getting ready for a date with the husband! I've got so much cleaning to do, and have to get it all done by next weekend so that I can leave knowing my house isn't a disaster! Plus, hubby and I get to have a date tonight and I'd like to come home to a clean house later!

My husband and I don't get out alone too often. There are so many worries about people watching our kids and what not, so most times we just do something we can take them to with us. It does make it hard because it is always about the kids and what they want. Tonight, though, is all about us and what we want!

I really don't mind that we take the kids with us most of the time, we are a family and that's what happens when you have kids. But it is nice when we can go out and be able to focus on each other and have that time for just us. Plus, I am leaving in a little over a week and will be gone for a few weeks, so it will be nice to get some time before I go.

I think in the whole 4 1/2 years we have been married, we've had a whole couple of weeks to ourselves. We either had roommates or children. So, we never really had that time to focus on each other and be a couple, alone together. I thinking dating is such an important aspect of continuing to fall in love with each other, and I am glad we, even though its not often, get the chance to date each other. Maybe when we are back in the states and have family or closer friends near us, we can do it more often.

Until then, I will take advantage of every chance I get to have a date. I put so much time and effort into being a mother that sometimes I slack in efforts of being a wife. My husband needs and deserves more of me, and I hope tonight will allow me to put all of my efforts into being a wife!