AH! We are in the apartment and getting settled. Unpacking still isn't done but I am trying not to do too much in one day. I've done about 1 box per day, though only doing small or half packed boxes. I've been feeling quite nauseas and exhausted lately so it's hard to get a lot done. Plus, doing that between still doing normal household chores and cleaning up after 2 very messy little boys.
We have decided that getting another vehicle right now just isn't feasible for us. So as it stands, we are going to keep the truck and car that we have. But when I need to go somewhere, hubby will take the car so that I can have the truck. I just feel better about driving the truck and feel its much more reliable. We are going to work on getting all of our debt paid off this year so that next year we can get a new vehicle and end up paying less interest because our credit will look much better. It's not bad now, but will be great once we get some of this debt taken care of.
Other than that, it's been life as normal, with the pregnancy symptoms of course. I do love being pregnant but the nausea could go. I start to feel it around 10-11pm and it lasts through 2-3am. Mostly keeping me awake, even when I am not actually throwing up. It's nice that it's happening when everyone is asleep, except the fact it keeps me from getting much sleep.
I have my first appointment next week and I am super excited! I hope they do an ultrasound to make sure it's going as it should because I have been so worried and frightened. After having an ectopic pregnancy, it's definitely a lot more scary to wonder if everything is going to work out as you hope it does. I can say that I have been trying to really take better care of my body this time, cutting back the soda, taking my vitamins and reducing the smoking as I did when I was pregnant with my boys. Drinking more water and trying to get decent amounts of sleep, without over working my body. It's harder than it sounds, but I am doing it and trying to make sure that I am doing what I am supposed to do! I feel good about this pregnancy and don't think I will have any issues, though you never know.
Anyway, it's time for me to try to get some sleep! I will write again soon!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Good ideas aren't always good
So, my bright idea to move has been quite the stressful adventure. The moving itself was pretty relaxed, though we did no packing and no moving of things ourselves, other than the liquids and jewelry that they won't do. We had a pretty good experience with the move, but unpacking in a nightmare. So many boxes and so little space. I feel like we may end up living out of these boxes for months and it's only been a couple days.
We moved on Friday and by Friday night I had 75% of the kitchen unpacked and put away, about 50% of our bedroom, about 50% of the kids' room and all big furniture was set up and in place before we went to bed Friday night. I was quite pleased with how much we accomplished in just a few hours of being in our new home. Now, 4 days later, I feel like if I unpack 1 more box I am going to go insane.
Plus, the amazing landlord we had for 2 years turned into a total nitpick during out final inspection of the house. Now, we knew there were going to be some issues, but some turned into a lot. We got a little more than half our deposit back and have opened an insurance claim. Hopefully all will work out, but who knows. Hopefully we can get the insurance to cover it all so that we can get the rest of our deposit back.
One good thing that has come out of this is that we are getting me a new vehicle! Brand new! I am so excited! With a baby on the way and all that, a newer bigger vehicle is needed. We are getting a van and it had 48 miles on it during my test drive tonight! This will be the newest vehicle I've ever owned! I can't wait til it's mine!
Anywho... there's my update. Hoping to get back to blogging regularly soon! Just busy with unpacking and settling in! Hope everyone has a great week!
We moved on Friday and by Friday night I had 75% of the kitchen unpacked and put away, about 50% of our bedroom, about 50% of the kids' room and all big furniture was set up and in place before we went to bed Friday night. I was quite pleased with how much we accomplished in just a few hours of being in our new home. Now, 4 days later, I feel like if I unpack 1 more box I am going to go insane.
Plus, the amazing landlord we had for 2 years turned into a total nitpick during out final inspection of the house. Now, we knew there were going to be some issues, but some turned into a lot. We got a little more than half our deposit back and have opened an insurance claim. Hopefully all will work out, but who knows. Hopefully we can get the insurance to cover it all so that we can get the rest of our deposit back.
One good thing that has come out of this is that we are getting me a new vehicle! Brand new! I am so excited! With a baby on the way and all that, a newer bigger vehicle is needed. We are getting a van and it had 48 miles on it during my test drive tonight! This will be the newest vehicle I've ever owned! I can't wait til it's mine!
Anywho... there's my update. Hoping to get back to blogging regularly soon! Just busy with unpacking and settling in! Hope everyone has a great week!
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
BUSY BUSY
Whew... what a weekend. We went car shopping. I love to go shopping, but as anyone knows, car shopping is the second most expensive kind of shopping there is... lol... We are looking at vans now that our family is growing again! Neither of our vehicles really allows for room to grow and we need more space!
If all goes well, we may be the owners of a 2010 Dodge Grand Caravan Hero. Not exactly my first pick, but it's what fell within our price range. If I had more money just to blow on a vehicle, I would have gone for the 2011 Chrylser Town and Country Limited. But, we take what we can get within our budget. It's a nice van though. Comes with a media package which includes DVD and a 9in screen! With kids, it will be wonderful to have that available to us! It doesn't have all the bells and whistles but it definitely has enough to keep us all comfortable and allows us the room we need with a growing family!
We also went bed shopping. Now that we are expecting another child and moving into a 3 bedroom apartment, looks like it's time for bunk beds. The two older boys will share a room together now, at least for the rest of our time in Germany. If this baby is a boy, we may consider changing some things around in the states if we only get a 3 bedroom there too. We didn't buy beds yet, just wanted to peek at what some of our options will be when we make that venture, soon.
Today, I get to do as much laundry as I can do in a day, pack our kitchen up and get things ready for FMO to come pick up their stuff. Two days is what we get to live without a freezer, washer/dryer or closets. Luckily we do have some built-in closet space in the house, but a lot of our clothes will be packed up tonight. Same thing with the food, no freezer means some stuff in there will have to go in the trash. Ah well.
I am really hoping that Wednesday, Thursday and Friday fly by quickly. I am ready to get this move done and over with. I already stress when it comes to moving, and being pregnant I find myself stressing even more, which is not good. I just want it to be over so that I can relax and quit stressing over it and relax and enjoy this wonderful baby growing inside me!!!
If all goes well, we may be the owners of a 2010 Dodge Grand Caravan Hero. Not exactly my first pick, but it's what fell within our price range. If I had more money just to blow on a vehicle, I would have gone for the 2011 Chrylser Town and Country Limited. But, we take what we can get within our budget. It's a nice van though. Comes with a media package which includes DVD and a 9in screen! With kids, it will be wonderful to have that available to us! It doesn't have all the bells and whistles but it definitely has enough to keep us all comfortable and allows us the room we need with a growing family!
We also went bed shopping. Now that we are expecting another child and moving into a 3 bedroom apartment, looks like it's time for bunk beds. The two older boys will share a room together now, at least for the rest of our time in Germany. If this baby is a boy, we may consider changing some things around in the states if we only get a 3 bedroom there too. We didn't buy beds yet, just wanted to peek at what some of our options will be when we make that venture, soon.
Today, I get to do as much laundry as I can do in a day, pack our kitchen up and get things ready for FMO to come pick up their stuff. Two days is what we get to live without a freezer, washer/dryer or closets. Luckily we do have some built-in closet space in the house, but a lot of our clothes will be packed up tonight. Same thing with the food, no freezer means some stuff in there will have to go in the trash. Ah well.
I am really hoping that Wednesday, Thursday and Friday fly by quickly. I am ready to get this move done and over with. I already stress when it comes to moving, and being pregnant I find myself stressing even more, which is not good. I just want it to be over so that I can relax and quit stressing over it and relax and enjoy this wonderful baby growing inside me!!!
Friday, January 14, 2011
Expecting!
Well, the cat is out of the bag! We are having a baby! I was trying to keep it kinda quiet for a while, but apparently it's not something I hide well. And of course, comment after comment and my guilty face not being able to hide it.
Adrien has been mighty clingy to me for a while and while talking to some other mommies about it, they brought up an old tale about that. Saying if they cling to you, you will probably have a baby of the opposite sex, where if they want nothing with you it probably means it's a baby of the same sex. Of course when she said that, my face just couldn't hide it.
It's still very early and after my last pregnancy, I am trying to be extra careful. Vitamins, eating healthier and quitting smoking are all a must! I am also being careful not to do too much during the day, and taking frequent breaks when I need to.
With our move being next week, things are hectic and crazy around here. Trying to get ready, but not over working myself, is more difficult than I thought it would be. Boxes need to get packed, moved around and lifted. I end up kicking them across the floor so that I am not lifting anything to heavy.
I am so excited about this pregnancy and can't wait until I am able to feel the baby move and see my baby for the first time!!! What an awesome new journey to share with everyone!!
Adrien has been mighty clingy to me for a while and while talking to some other mommies about it, they brought up an old tale about that. Saying if they cling to you, you will probably have a baby of the opposite sex, where if they want nothing with you it probably means it's a baby of the same sex. Of course when she said that, my face just couldn't hide it.
It's still very early and after my last pregnancy, I am trying to be extra careful. Vitamins, eating healthier and quitting smoking are all a must! I am also being careful not to do too much during the day, and taking frequent breaks when I need to.
With our move being next week, things are hectic and crazy around here. Trying to get ready, but not over working myself, is more difficult than I thought it would be. Boxes need to get packed, moved around and lifted. I end up kicking them across the floor so that I am not lifting anything to heavy.
I am so excited about this pregnancy and can't wait until I am able to feel the baby move and see my baby for the first time!!! What an awesome new journey to share with everyone!!
What a Train Wreck
Sheesh, my house looks like a train wreck. All these boxes and things that need to either get tossed or packed. Moving can be such a pain in the butt. Though, I am so glad we are finally doing it! I will just be happy when it's done and we are settled into our new place.
I'd been working so hard on getting things packed and separated. Sorting through things we don't need and getting as much ready to donate or trash as possible. Now, though, I have to limit how much work I am doing. I am having some medical stuff going on, so no lifting heavy stuff and have to be careful that I am not doing too much. Just stinks because my house looks like a train wreck and I want nothing more than to bust my butt getting it all done.
Tuesday the movers are coming to do an evaluation of all our stuff. Hopefully this weekend the hubby and I can work together to get everything done so that it's clean and easy to do for the movers. That, and I don't want them packing the stuff I don't plan on keeping. I want it all to be gone, not piled in our new place.
Friday is the big day! Just 1 more week! Then we will spend the weekend cleaning and getting things done before the landlords come check us out on Monday! I am sad to leave this house, it has been quite wonderful, but happy to be near friends! Until then, it's off to trying to fix this train wreck without hurting myself!
I'd been working so hard on getting things packed and separated. Sorting through things we don't need and getting as much ready to donate or trash as possible. Now, though, I have to limit how much work I am doing. I am having some medical stuff going on, so no lifting heavy stuff and have to be careful that I am not doing too much. Just stinks because my house looks like a train wreck and I want nothing more than to bust my butt getting it all done.
Tuesday the movers are coming to do an evaluation of all our stuff. Hopefully this weekend the hubby and I can work together to get everything done so that it's clean and easy to do for the movers. That, and I don't want them packing the stuff I don't plan on keeping. I want it all to be gone, not piled in our new place.
Friday is the big day! Just 1 more week! Then we will spend the weekend cleaning and getting things done before the landlords come check us out on Monday! I am sad to leave this house, it has been quite wonderful, but happy to be near friends! Until then, it's off to trying to fix this train wreck without hurting myself!
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Military comes first!
After watching a video someone posted on Facebook, I was reminded that I have taken my life with my husband for granted. In March, we will be married for 5 years! He's military, which, for a lot of couples, means 2-3 years of that spent together. I am one of the few lucky spouses who can say I have spent those 5 years, minus a couple weeks here and there, with my husband.
The majority of the military goes through at least one deployment within their first couple of years on active duty. My husband has been in for almost 9 years and hasn't been deployed yet. He has tried, volunteering and even begging to go, just hasn't happened. Though, I know many spouses who are on their 2nd or 3rd deployment and haven't been married as long as we have. It's sad that I have taken this for granted, but I am glad to have been reminded.
Do I want my husband to deploy, not really. Do I know that it will help his career and happen eventually, yes. While I wouldn't want to see him leave, I know that it's going to happen at some point. I also know that it will help boost his career in the military. That's something a lot of people don't realize about being military. Without deployments or short tours (normally a 12-18 month assignment without family), their careers are normally capped at a certain point.
I hate hearing people who aren't military say "well, I had to be by myself for 2 whole weeks while my husband went to a conference". 2 weeks is nothing compared to the 6-12 months that spouses live without their husband's and wives are in a dangerous country. People who have never lived this life just don't understand it. It's hard, and lots of marriages end because of the separations and stress this lifestyle brings. Even not going through a deployment, this lifestyle is very stressful on families.
We move, we put our lives/careers on hold (not always but there are times these do suffer), we have to make new friends every couple of years, we cook dinners that don't get eaten, we do many things that other spouses don't do, and on a daily basis. The military comes first. Sometimes it can be hard to handle. But now that I have that reminder of how lucky I have been, I am going to stop taking this life for granted and take the opportunities I do have!
The majority of the military goes through at least one deployment within their first couple of years on active duty. My husband has been in for almost 9 years and hasn't been deployed yet. He has tried, volunteering and even begging to go, just hasn't happened. Though, I know many spouses who are on their 2nd or 3rd deployment and haven't been married as long as we have. It's sad that I have taken this for granted, but I am glad to have been reminded.
Do I want my husband to deploy, not really. Do I know that it will help his career and happen eventually, yes. While I wouldn't want to see him leave, I know that it's going to happen at some point. I also know that it will help boost his career in the military. That's something a lot of people don't realize about being military. Without deployments or short tours (normally a 12-18 month assignment without family), their careers are normally capped at a certain point.
I hate hearing people who aren't military say "well, I had to be by myself for 2 whole weeks while my husband went to a conference". 2 weeks is nothing compared to the 6-12 months that spouses live without their husband's and wives are in a dangerous country. People who have never lived this life just don't understand it. It's hard, and lots of marriages end because of the separations and stress this lifestyle brings. Even not going through a deployment, this lifestyle is very stressful on families.
We move, we put our lives/careers on hold (not always but there are times these do suffer), we have to make new friends every couple of years, we cook dinners that don't get eaten, we do many things that other spouses don't do, and on a daily basis. The military comes first. Sometimes it can be hard to handle. But now that I have that reminder of how lucky I have been, I am going to stop taking this life for granted and take the opportunities I do have!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sick kids :(
Until the last 2 weeks or so, we had been pretty lucky with not getting more than the common cold! Probably had a lot to do with us being in the US until the end of November, but I was hoping with us being home more and not going out so much, we'd get lucky and skip the sickness. Ha, yeah right.
Not long after we got home I was having issues. Not sick, but pain and other symptoms. I ended up going to the ER and put on antibiotics and pain medication. Then, just about the time I was feeling better Darien starts complaining of his belly hurting. He threw up 2 nights in a row, no fever and no other symptoms, just the belly pain. Finally, after 5 days of him complaining, I took him to the ER. He was severely constipated (even though he had been pooping). He had to have 2 enemas done, which are by far my least favorite thing. Then, just as he is feeling better, Adrien starts having a fever. At first it was just a fever and tylenol was taking it down.
Today, however, tylenol did nothing for it. He cried ALL morning, between short naps, and was so hot he was his own little furnace. I called, but of course, no appointments available. So, I was told to take him to the ER because chances were they wouldn't have any tomorrow either. Well, even if they had some for tomorrow, I wasn't going to wait that long. I learned with Darien that I will no longer listen to my child tell me he is in pain and not do something about it right away. So, off to the ER we go.
When we first got there, his fever was 103.4. His heart rate was WAY higher than a normal heart rate and even the nurse could feel the heat radiating off him without even touching him. Because of how high his temperature was, they got him right in! They gave him motrin (which I didn't have at home) and that seemed to help almost immediately. The doctor came in, checked out his ears, and both ears are infected. The right ear is a lot worse than the left ear, which is why that was the ear he kept messing with. I knew before I took him in what it was, so thankfully it was pretty quick.
Since having the motrin, he has been in such better spirits. Not a single tear since coming home, at least not because of the pain. He's on antibiotics and will hopefully be back to his normal little self soon. It's so hard when the kids are not feeling well. I love their personalities and when they are ill, they aren't themselves.
I am hoping that this is it, at least until after we move. We haven't gone out too much, staying away from people who are sick and staying out of crowded places for the most part. I don't go shopping unless I NEED something, so maybe we can keep the yucky sicknesses from hitting us! If not, guess it will be dealt with, but one can hope.
Not long after we got home I was having issues. Not sick, but pain and other symptoms. I ended up going to the ER and put on antibiotics and pain medication. Then, just about the time I was feeling better Darien starts complaining of his belly hurting. He threw up 2 nights in a row, no fever and no other symptoms, just the belly pain. Finally, after 5 days of him complaining, I took him to the ER. He was severely constipated (even though he had been pooping). He had to have 2 enemas done, which are by far my least favorite thing. Then, just as he is feeling better, Adrien starts having a fever. At first it was just a fever and tylenol was taking it down.
Today, however, tylenol did nothing for it. He cried ALL morning, between short naps, and was so hot he was his own little furnace. I called, but of course, no appointments available. So, I was told to take him to the ER because chances were they wouldn't have any tomorrow either. Well, even if they had some for tomorrow, I wasn't going to wait that long. I learned with Darien that I will no longer listen to my child tell me he is in pain and not do something about it right away. So, off to the ER we go.
When we first got there, his fever was 103.4. His heart rate was WAY higher than a normal heart rate and even the nurse could feel the heat radiating off him without even touching him. Because of how high his temperature was, they got him right in! They gave him motrin (which I didn't have at home) and that seemed to help almost immediately. The doctor came in, checked out his ears, and both ears are infected. The right ear is a lot worse than the left ear, which is why that was the ear he kept messing with. I knew before I took him in what it was, so thankfully it was pretty quick.
Since having the motrin, he has been in such better spirits. Not a single tear since coming home, at least not because of the pain. He's on antibiotics and will hopefully be back to his normal little self soon. It's so hard when the kids are not feeling well. I love their personalities and when they are ill, they aren't themselves.
I am hoping that this is it, at least until after we move. We haven't gone out too much, staying away from people who are sick and staying out of crowded places for the most part. I don't go shopping unless I NEED something, so maybe we can keep the yucky sicknesses from hitting us! If not, guess it will be dealt with, but one can hope.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Almost a new year
What a weekend!!! Friends, food, gifts and lots of laughs have been shared! And we aren't done yet. Still waiting on a few things through the mail from family and then our Christmas will finally be complete!
We don't normally splurge on things, but I think this year we went all out, especially for the kids. All the cool stuff that they got will keep them happy for quite a while! I am excited to get to play with them and all their cool new stuff, and to take them out on their awesome new hot wheels when weather permits it!
Hubby and I had originally said we wouldn't buy more than simple stocking stuffers for each other, just focus more on the kids, but of course, that didn't happen. I got some pretty awesome stuff, and stuff I had considered getting for myself very soon! New gloves, scarf, velcro body towel and matching robe!!! And of course some nice new earrings that I can change up with different outfits! He didn't get as cool of stuff, but he got some much needed shirts. Plus, I think our new TV can be counted as a gift for us all!
Now we just wait for the last box of things from the family in the states and we will be done with Christmas! I am excited to show the boys what they got from everyone, and ready to see it all myself! I know what it all is, but seeing it in person will be so much better!
Now, we start to get ready for the new year! I am not one to make resolutions because I never stick to them, but the new year brings all sorts of new things! We are moving toward the end of January, hopefully paying off a lot of our debt with taxes and getting back onto the right track with our finances! School is bringing up a lot of new ideas for me also. I am rethinking my major already and even considering changing schools to get better benefits from it.
The only other thing the new year is going to bring, that I am sure of, is a new attitude about myself! I am already working on it and seeing a lot of changes in myself, so I will continue to work hard and be a better person, wife, mother and friend! I am going to start going to the gym, work on quitting smoking and try to get back into the shape I was before I had my kids! If I can do that, I am doing wonderful!!!
What does the new year bring for you?
We don't normally splurge on things, but I think this year we went all out, especially for the kids. All the cool stuff that they got will keep them happy for quite a while! I am excited to get to play with them and all their cool new stuff, and to take them out on their awesome new hot wheels when weather permits it!
Hubby and I had originally said we wouldn't buy more than simple stocking stuffers for each other, just focus more on the kids, but of course, that didn't happen. I got some pretty awesome stuff, and stuff I had considered getting for myself very soon! New gloves, scarf, velcro body towel and matching robe!!! And of course some nice new earrings that I can change up with different outfits! He didn't get as cool of stuff, but he got some much needed shirts. Plus, I think our new TV can be counted as a gift for us all!
Now we just wait for the last box of things from the family in the states and we will be done with Christmas! I am excited to show the boys what they got from everyone, and ready to see it all myself! I know what it all is, but seeing it in person will be so much better!
Now, we start to get ready for the new year! I am not one to make resolutions because I never stick to them, but the new year brings all sorts of new things! We are moving toward the end of January, hopefully paying off a lot of our debt with taxes and getting back onto the right track with our finances! School is bringing up a lot of new ideas for me also. I am rethinking my major already and even considering changing schools to get better benefits from it.
The only other thing the new year is going to bring, that I am sure of, is a new attitude about myself! I am already working on it and seeing a lot of changes in myself, so I will continue to work hard and be a better person, wife, mother and friend! I am going to start going to the gym, work on quitting smoking and try to get back into the shape I was before I had my kids! If I can do that, I am doing wonderful!!!
What does the new year bring for you?
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Can you believe it?!
Can you believe it? Christmas is knocking at our doors, already! This year has really flown by. I remember it seemed to drag in some parts, but really, I can't believe it's already Christmas. I can definitely say that my LONG trip to the states really helped pass a lot of time, making Christmas seem to come a lot quicker.
I am really missing my family and closest friends in the states right now. I remember Christmas being family dinner and gift exchanges and lots of laughter. I really miss that. This year, we are starting our own little traditions, with the memory of what we've had and what we'd like to do as "our own".
Christmas morning is just for our family. This year we will not only be giving them lost of neat presents, but sharing the real story of Christmas! They are still very young, and it might not sink in right away, but at least we can tell them about it and hope to raise them knowing that Christmas isn't about the presents you get, it's about Christ and celebrating his life!
Family dinner is a must! Though, it's not blood family that we get to share it with now, it's our military family here in Germany. We have some friends coming over for a yummy feast! Turkey, stuffing, mashed taters, chocolate and banana pudding pies, apple pie, cranberry sauce and whatever else people are bringing over! I can't wait!
I am really excited to see the kids' faces when they wake up Christmas morning! They have no idea what they are in for this year! We did a lot more than we originally intended on doing, but they deserve it! They've been really good this year, just being the awesome little boys they are!
Another thing this week brings for us is deciding to move! Because my car is crapped out again, I've decided it's best if we live on base. I love my current house, but getting anywhere from up here is tough not having a car. And, waking the boys up at 0630 to take hubby to work and have to come home before doing anything isn't my idea of a good day. At least with living on base we will have parks within walking distance and people around all the time so the kids should hopefully have a few new friends! We accepted a house today and will be moving next month! I am excited!
Though, moving on base brings a few challenges. We have to downsize, big time. Next week will begin my frantic cleaning and getting rid of things. We have way too much and we won't fit in the new place with it all. Luckily our furniture is fine, its the little things that we have to part with. I have a basement full of appliances and stuff that we haven't used, old clothes and stuff. Just got to get all those boxes emptied and out before the movers come!
That's all my news for now! I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!!!
I am really missing my family and closest friends in the states right now. I remember Christmas being family dinner and gift exchanges and lots of laughter. I really miss that. This year, we are starting our own little traditions, with the memory of what we've had and what we'd like to do as "our own".
Christmas morning is just for our family. This year we will not only be giving them lost of neat presents, but sharing the real story of Christmas! They are still very young, and it might not sink in right away, but at least we can tell them about it and hope to raise them knowing that Christmas isn't about the presents you get, it's about Christ and celebrating his life!
Family dinner is a must! Though, it's not blood family that we get to share it with now, it's our military family here in Germany. We have some friends coming over for a yummy feast! Turkey, stuffing, mashed taters, chocolate and banana pudding pies, apple pie, cranberry sauce and whatever else people are bringing over! I can't wait!
I am really excited to see the kids' faces when they wake up Christmas morning! They have no idea what they are in for this year! We did a lot more than we originally intended on doing, but they deserve it! They've been really good this year, just being the awesome little boys they are!
Another thing this week brings for us is deciding to move! Because my car is crapped out again, I've decided it's best if we live on base. I love my current house, but getting anywhere from up here is tough not having a car. And, waking the boys up at 0630 to take hubby to work and have to come home before doing anything isn't my idea of a good day. At least with living on base we will have parks within walking distance and people around all the time so the kids should hopefully have a few new friends! We accepted a house today and will be moving next month! I am excited!
Though, moving on base brings a few challenges. We have to downsize, big time. Next week will begin my frantic cleaning and getting rid of things. We have way too much and we won't fit in the new place with it all. Luckily our furniture is fine, its the little things that we have to part with. I have a basement full of appliances and stuff that we haven't used, old clothes and stuff. Just got to get all those boxes emptied and out before the movers come!
That's all my news for now! I hope everyone has a very Merry Christmas!!!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Last Year
One year ago I went through one of the most horrible experiences of my life. Finding out that I had an ectopic pregnancy, and the physical and emotional stress that caused left some pretty big emotional scars. Today is the 1 year anniversary of finding this out, and a year from when the worst of it really started.
December 4th was the day I found out I was pregnant using a home test. We had a holiday party that evening so I took the test to know whether or not I could drink. It was positive, and I was ecstatic! I went to the clinic the following Monday, December 7th, and they confirmed that I was indeed pregnant! I made my initial appointment with OBGYN for December 18th! Everything was perfect!
Then, December 15th I noticed some spotting in the evening and had some cramping so I went to the ER. The doctor told me that I was probably experiencing a miscarriage and that I needed to let it pass. She prescribed some pain medication and sent me home. The next night, even with pain medication, my pain was so bad that I could barely move. We called an ambulance and I was taken back to the ER. The doctor that night pretty much said the same as the other doctor, gave me more medication and sent me home. Though, he said to keep my appointment with OB so that I could be checked out to ensure everything was clearing up.
The day of December 17th, a nurse from the OBGYN clinic called to cancel my appointment. I explained to her everything that had been going on and informed her that I needed to keep the appointment. After arguing over it a little, she said she would call me back. Guess what? She never called back. So, getting worried, I got in touch with someone I knew who worked in the clinic. She told me to just show up at the appointment time and she'd take care of it.
I showed up that morning, had more blood work done (blood work had been done each time I went to the ER) and waited to find out what was happening. The doctor who agreed to see me did an internal ultrasound and we found that my pain was pretty limited to one side. My blood work had also showed that my levels had dropped, though not nearly as quickly as they should have with a normal miscarriage. The doctor finally stated that based on what she had seen, she believed I was experiencing an ectopic pregnancy.
I've found out that a lot of people don't know what that means. Well, it's when the fertilized egg gets stuck in the tube, which can be dangerous of not caught. It can cause damage to the tube, and in some cases, death. Thankfully they caught it and that I finally had someone who was willing to take the time to be sure before sending me back home.
Now that we knew what was happening, it was time to decide which route to take care of it. I had 2 options, I could have surgery or get a shot of methotrexate to ensure clearing of the tube. Surgery is risky anyway, but that early of a pregnancy they may not have been able to find the sac and I could have had my entire tube removed, making it that more difficult to become pregnant in the future. The shot was a better option, as it left little scar tissue and didn't require any cutting.
The shot, though, is a drug they use for cemotherapy on cancer patients. Side effects were extensive, and I think I felt them all. I was weak and sick for days, could barely get out of bed without getting dizzy and winded. I felt ill constantly and could do nothing about it. Plus, all the emotions I was going through from knowing that I was losing the baby we had tried for, it was just an awful time.
Now, it's been a year and I feel almost the same this year as I did last year. My body has been under a lot of stress, infections that are causing bigger issues, and all regarding my baby making parts. I had my IUD removed last week, which apparently caused an infection, leading to PID (Pelvic Inflammatory Disease). So, I was just in the ER the other night with pain and heavy bleeding, and today I am still fighting the pain.
I know it's not the same kind of pain, and no where near as emotional of an issue, but it has been a painful reminder of everything. I almost feel that if it wasn't for all of this now, I wouldn't be having as hard of a time with my emotions. I would still be very sad, but would I be THIS brought down by it? It's a lot on my mind and have had a rough day, though I am trying to be strong! For my boys, my husband and myself! God has brought me through this last year, and because of Him, I am going to make it through all of this!
December 4th was the day I found out I was pregnant using a home test. We had a holiday party that evening so I took the test to know whether or not I could drink. It was positive, and I was ecstatic! I went to the clinic the following Monday, December 7th, and they confirmed that I was indeed pregnant! I made my initial appointment with OBGYN for December 18th! Everything was perfect!
Then, December 15th I noticed some spotting in the evening and had some cramping so I went to the ER. The doctor told me that I was probably experiencing a miscarriage and that I needed to let it pass. She prescribed some pain medication and sent me home. The next night, even with pain medication, my pain was so bad that I could barely move. We called an ambulance and I was taken back to the ER. The doctor that night pretty much said the same as the other doctor, gave me more medication and sent me home. Though, he said to keep my appointment with OB so that I could be checked out to ensure everything was clearing up.
The day of December 17th, a nurse from the OBGYN clinic called to cancel my appointment. I explained to her everything that had been going on and informed her that I needed to keep the appointment. After arguing over it a little, she said she would call me back. Guess what? She never called back. So, getting worried, I got in touch with someone I knew who worked in the clinic. She told me to just show up at the appointment time and she'd take care of it.
I showed up that morning, had more blood work done (blood work had been done each time I went to the ER) and waited to find out what was happening. The doctor who agreed to see me did an internal ultrasound and we found that my pain was pretty limited to one side. My blood work had also showed that my levels had dropped, though not nearly as quickly as they should have with a normal miscarriage. The doctor finally stated that based on what she had seen, she believed I was experiencing an ectopic pregnancy.
I've found out that a lot of people don't know what that means. Well, it's when the fertilized egg gets stuck in the tube, which can be dangerous of not caught. It can cause damage to the tube, and in some cases, death. Thankfully they caught it and that I finally had someone who was willing to take the time to be sure before sending me back home.
Now that we knew what was happening, it was time to decide which route to take care of it. I had 2 options, I could have surgery or get a shot of methotrexate to ensure clearing of the tube. Surgery is risky anyway, but that early of a pregnancy they may not have been able to find the sac and I could have had my entire tube removed, making it that more difficult to become pregnant in the future. The shot was a better option, as it left little scar tissue and didn't require any cutting.
The shot, though, is a drug they use for cemotherapy on cancer patients. Side effects were extensive, and I think I felt them all. I was weak and sick for days, could barely get out of bed without getting dizzy and winded. I felt ill constantly and could do nothing about it. Plus, all the emotions I was going through from knowing that I was losing the baby we had tried for, it was just an awful time.
Now, it's been a year and I feel almost the same this year as I did last year. My body has been under a lot of stress, infections that are causing bigger issues, and all regarding my baby making parts. I had my IUD removed last week, which apparently caused an infection, leading to PID (Pelvic Inflammatory Disease). So, I was just in the ER the other night with pain and heavy bleeding, and today I am still fighting the pain.
I know it's not the same kind of pain, and no where near as emotional of an issue, but it has been a painful reminder of everything. I almost feel that if it wasn't for all of this now, I wouldn't be having as hard of a time with my emotions. I would still be very sad, but would I be THIS brought down by it? It's a lot on my mind and have had a rough day, though I am trying to be strong! For my boys, my husband and myself! God has brought me through this last year, and because of Him, I am going to make it through all of this!
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