For dinner I had fajitas, Filip had his fajita quesadillas, Darien had a corn dog and Adrien had pizza. Very different meals but we were all eating at the same table at the same time. Well, something else that I realized while having dinner last night was that while no one is eating the same meal, that shouldn't keep us from sharing one table.
Have you ever really sat and looked at all the people in your life? How many of them are exactly the same as the others? None, right!? We can apply the different meals sharing one table to the people in our lives. Even with our differences, we can come together as friends, and even as family!
What I mean is we are all human. We may not lead the same lives or make the same choices or even share the same opinions but we should love each other. God doesn't tell us that because we don't believe a certain way that he doesn't love us, He loves us no matter what we believe. Why can't we all have that same love for everyone around us?
Everyone makes mistakes, no one is perfect. Our place isn't judging those around us, our place is to love and accept them. We don't have to make them part of the family and be their friends, we just need to show love and acceptance. When we judge or degrade others because their beliefs are different, we are sinning against God.
It's even said that opinions are just that, an opinion. We don't have to agree, we just have to try to learn to accept the difference and move on. Calling people dumb or any other mean/degrading remark against another person, no matter the reason, is not our place. Would God call someone stupid or degrade them the way we do to each other? NO!!! So why do we continue to do this even when we call ourselves Christians?
The idea is to live life as close to the Godly way as we can. Not allowing people, with their differences, to share one table with us is wrong. We may be eating different meals, having different discussions, but we are all loved by God and should be loved by each other!
I am guilty of this myself. Judging people, making comments about them. I have really tried lately to make that one of my changes. In my last post I mentioned the thoughts I have that I pray right then for God to remove them, those are some of the thoughts I was talking about. When I see someone and automatically judge them based on appearance or how the speak, I pray for God to remove those thoughts and I then force myself to think of something nice about the person. Even if it's something as simple as they are wearing nice socks. Just something to veer away from the negative thoughts and not allowing myself to see that person in a negative way.
It's not easy to do and I am sure there are times I haven't caught myself and passed judgment or even laughed to myself about another person. I just want this to be something I continue to work on. I also want to teach my kids that judging people isn't right. They shouldn't look at a person and feel they have any right to do so. None of us do.
No matter how "Godly" we believe we are. No matter how moral we believe we are. No matter how another person acts, dresses or lives. NO MATTER WHAT! We don't have the right to judge, degrade or belittle others. Everyone will have their judgment day so lets learn to love each other and leave judgments up to the one person who has that authority, God!
Friday, April 15, 2011
Realizing His place in my life!
While cleaning the kitchen this morning, I realized something. I always listen to music when I clean, just makes it easier to do and I can sing along and have a good time with it. I just put my iPhone in the docking station and turn it up! My music ranges from Country to Rap to Christian. Well, what I realized this morning is that I might as well delete most of the songs that aren't Christian songs.
I've found that I tend to skip most other types of songs and listen to just the Christian bands. Now, this isn't like the normal Gospel music people are used to. This is Christian rock bands, Skillet and Kutless being the main ones. I just seem drawn more to those songs that anything else now.
There are some songs, like Breakfast At Tiffany's or Strawberry Wine, that I just can't skip over. It just seems weird to me that without me even acknowledging or realizing it, this is one change that has just taken over me.
I haven't really paid much attention to the changes in me, just trying to live for Him and go with the daily stream. Though, sitting here writing about the music, I realize there have been other smaller changes in my life. Like me slowly veering away from certain people or catching myself thinking bad thoughts and praying right then for Him to take those thoughts away. It's actually a much different life than what I had just 6 months ago. I like it!
I even find myself appreciating and loving my husband differently than I did just a few months ago. I try harder in everything I do, for Him and my husband. I've been happier than ever with where my life it at and find myself in much better moods on a daily basis! And we all know that women in good moods is a good thing for their husbands :)
Things are changing for me. GREAT changes that I welcome! Some will be harder than others, like releasing certain people from my life that have been around a while but are just bad for me. I am hoping that I continue to change and grow in His will and become a better person everyday!
Here's a few songs that have been my favorites to listen to lately! Hope you enjoy them as much as I do!
http://youtu.be/7elxC8LXfzE
http://youtu.be/6Fxbz67SzSo
http://youtu.be/c_GD4MQspvc
http://youtu.be/BjSvml7iWeQ
http://youtu.be/i8qluy1ISL0
http://youtu.be/82hLvgGuDu8
http://youtu.be/A4ZRxcX1uYE
http://youtu.be/EUs4KxETz8Y
http://youtu.be/v3AzG6C6Q6w
I've found that I tend to skip most other types of songs and listen to just the Christian bands. Now, this isn't like the normal Gospel music people are used to. This is Christian rock bands, Skillet and Kutless being the main ones. I just seem drawn more to those songs that anything else now.
There are some songs, like Breakfast At Tiffany's or Strawberry Wine, that I just can't skip over. It just seems weird to me that without me even acknowledging or realizing it, this is one change that has just taken over me.
I haven't really paid much attention to the changes in me, just trying to live for Him and go with the daily stream. Though, sitting here writing about the music, I realize there have been other smaller changes in my life. Like me slowly veering away from certain people or catching myself thinking bad thoughts and praying right then for Him to take those thoughts away. It's actually a much different life than what I had just 6 months ago. I like it!
I even find myself appreciating and loving my husband differently than I did just a few months ago. I try harder in everything I do, for Him and my husband. I've been happier than ever with where my life it at and find myself in much better moods on a daily basis! And we all know that women in good moods is a good thing for their husbands :)
Things are changing for me. GREAT changes that I welcome! Some will be harder than others, like releasing certain people from my life that have been around a while but are just bad for me. I am hoping that I continue to change and grow in His will and become a better person everyday!
Here's a few songs that have been my favorites to listen to lately! Hope you enjoy them as much as I do!
http://youtu.be/7elxC8LXfzE
http://youtu.be/6Fxbz67SzSo
http://youtu.be/c_GD4MQspvc
http://youtu.be/BjSvml7iWeQ
http://youtu.be/i8qluy1ISL0
http://youtu.be/82hLvgGuDu8
http://youtu.be/A4ZRxcX1uYE
http://youtu.be/EUs4KxETz8Y
http://youtu.be/v3AzG6C6Q6w
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Eye yi yi
Well, poor Adrien and I have been sick for a week now. Just haven't seemed to have any relief. So when Adrien's eyes started to pus, I honestly thought he may just have such a bad sinus infection that it was causing that to happen. Nope. He has pink eye.
Today was the first experience with an off-base doctor. I didn't get to go because I wasn't able to locate my ID, but Filip took him and said it was great. Filip isn't one to care for any kind of doctor visit, especially with the kids, so him saying that is amazing. He said the whole thing was super quick and that he really liked the doctor they saw. Makes me want to make sure we continue to go off base from now on.
Plus, Adrien has a tendency to freak out with doctors. He isn't a fan, which what child is? Though, he REALLY just doesn't want any of the doctors we've seen here to touch him. I think Adrien is a little more picky about people than most kids, but when he likes a doctor, it's rare and should be deemed a good thing.
As for now, eye drops and nasal spray. Hopefully this will all clear up soon and we can get on with our lives. The weather today was FANTASTIC and I am sad I didn't get to enjoy it with my boys. So ready for no more illness and just good times outdoors!
Today was the first experience with an off-base doctor. I didn't get to go because I wasn't able to locate my ID, but Filip took him and said it was great. Filip isn't one to care for any kind of doctor visit, especially with the kids, so him saying that is amazing. He said the whole thing was super quick and that he really liked the doctor they saw. Makes me want to make sure we continue to go off base from now on.
Plus, Adrien has a tendency to freak out with doctors. He isn't a fan, which what child is? Though, he REALLY just doesn't want any of the doctors we've seen here to touch him. I think Adrien is a little more picky about people than most kids, but when he likes a doctor, it's rare and should be deemed a good thing.
As for now, eye drops and nasal spray. Hopefully this will all clear up soon and we can get on with our lives. The weather today was FANTASTIC and I am sad I didn't get to enjoy it with my boys. So ready for no more illness and just good times outdoors!
Monday, March 21, 2011
Questions
Life in Germany isn't easy or for the faint at heart. While it can be an amazing experience for most, it can also be a horrifying experience for others. Being in a foreign country, away from family and close friends and sometimes starting or expanding families so far from home can be scary.
I for one feel half and half of it all. While I think living here is a once in a lifetime opportunity that should be taken advantage of, I still have a really hard time being so far from those I love. Honestly, the last two years have seemed to drag, making it feel like I've been here for five already.
We haven't done a whole lot of traveling, which I am sure is part of the reason I find it so blah and not completely happy. We are going to start planning more trips but it is hard with 2 small children and a baby on the way. Most tours and areas aren't necessarily child/stroller friendly and it makes the traveling a little difficult.
Missing family and friends is hard for me. I have met a lot of really nice people here but I don't know that I have too many I'd actually call real friends. They are nice, we get along but there isn't much time being spent hanging out. Between the colds that get passed around, husbands getting deployed and sent on TDY's, its hard to get people together. That, and those of us with small children find it more difficult, and more expensive, to get out than those who's children are in school or grown.
I do also hate that my family doesn't get to see my boys that often. Not having them around and knowing that the kids are missing out on having that closeness that I had as a child makes me sad. That causes a lot of grief for me, along with the fact that all my close friends who have small children and we aren't around them either. The boys seem to get along very well with my friends children and I'd love for us all to be closer.
Though, Filip's family is who'd I'd love to be close to. His family does have more children (since mine are technically the only kids of the family I am close to), all of which the boys seemed to bond with on our last trip to see them. Darien says that one of his cousins, Dominic, is also his best friend. He just loved him to pieces. I just wish we were closer to them and that the kids got to grow up knowing their cousins and other family.
Over the last two years, being in Germany has raised a lot of questions for me. Am I cut out for this lifestyle? Do I love Filip enough to continue living in unknown parts of the world and constantly being separated from family? Am I a strong enough person to still be mentally stable at the end of this assignment, or the end of his career??? Questions that do make a marriage hard and can sometimes end it. But, based on people I know and have talked with, this seems to be a normal part of being a spouse, especially a military spouse. We all wonder at times if we are "cut out" for this, but then we look at our husbands and realize that YES, we can get through this because they are there with us.
I may have questions at times, especially when the homesick kicks in, but I know that no matter how difficult living here may be, when it's all over I have a story to tell that many others will never have! I get to live my life with a man who has stood by me, every up and every down and never looked at me any differently than he did the day he married me. No matter my faults or short comings, he comes home to me every night to tell me he loves me and I know that I have his entire heart and body for the rest of my life!
I guess what I am trying to say is that I want all military spouses to understand that having these questions is normal. It's a normal part of marriage and especially military relationships. It just depends on how you answer the questions and what you do with them that determines their importance. I choose to answer them by saying my marriage is more important than the other stuff and that while we aren't close to them now, we will be close to family someday. He won't be in the military forever, so it's not like this will be the only thing we do. We just need to soak up what experiences we can while he's in and make the best of the next 10 years.
If you can look at it and answer the questions like that, just keep reminding yourself that it won't last forever. Even those who don't think they are strong can survive these times and make the most of it! Just remember to continually fall in love with your spouse as often and as many times as possible! Keep communicating and never hold your feelings in. Talk about them, to someone. Til next time!
I for one feel half and half of it all. While I think living here is a once in a lifetime opportunity that should be taken advantage of, I still have a really hard time being so far from those I love. Honestly, the last two years have seemed to drag, making it feel like I've been here for five already.
We haven't done a whole lot of traveling, which I am sure is part of the reason I find it so blah and not completely happy. We are going to start planning more trips but it is hard with 2 small children and a baby on the way. Most tours and areas aren't necessarily child/stroller friendly and it makes the traveling a little difficult.
Missing family and friends is hard for me. I have met a lot of really nice people here but I don't know that I have too many I'd actually call real friends. They are nice, we get along but there isn't much time being spent hanging out. Between the colds that get passed around, husbands getting deployed and sent on TDY's, its hard to get people together. That, and those of us with small children find it more difficult, and more expensive, to get out than those who's children are in school or grown.
I do also hate that my family doesn't get to see my boys that often. Not having them around and knowing that the kids are missing out on having that closeness that I had as a child makes me sad. That causes a lot of grief for me, along with the fact that all my close friends who have small children and we aren't around them either. The boys seem to get along very well with my friends children and I'd love for us all to be closer.
Though, Filip's family is who'd I'd love to be close to. His family does have more children (since mine are technically the only kids of the family I am close to), all of which the boys seemed to bond with on our last trip to see them. Darien says that one of his cousins, Dominic, is also his best friend. He just loved him to pieces. I just wish we were closer to them and that the kids got to grow up knowing their cousins and other family.
Over the last two years, being in Germany has raised a lot of questions for me. Am I cut out for this lifestyle? Do I love Filip enough to continue living in unknown parts of the world and constantly being separated from family? Am I a strong enough person to still be mentally stable at the end of this assignment, or the end of his career??? Questions that do make a marriage hard and can sometimes end it. But, based on people I know and have talked with, this seems to be a normal part of being a spouse, especially a military spouse. We all wonder at times if we are "cut out" for this, but then we look at our husbands and realize that YES, we can get through this because they are there with us.
I may have questions at times, especially when the homesick kicks in, but I know that no matter how difficult living here may be, when it's all over I have a story to tell that many others will never have! I get to live my life with a man who has stood by me, every up and every down and never looked at me any differently than he did the day he married me. No matter my faults or short comings, he comes home to me every night to tell me he loves me and I know that I have his entire heart and body for the rest of my life!
I guess what I am trying to say is that I want all military spouses to understand that having these questions is normal. It's a normal part of marriage and especially military relationships. It just depends on how you answer the questions and what you do with them that determines their importance. I choose to answer them by saying my marriage is more important than the other stuff and that while we aren't close to them now, we will be close to family someday. He won't be in the military forever, so it's not like this will be the only thing we do. We just need to soak up what experiences we can while he's in and make the best of the next 10 years.
If you can look at it and answer the questions like that, just keep reminding yourself that it won't last forever. Even those who don't think they are strong can survive these times and make the most of it! Just remember to continually fall in love with your spouse as often and as many times as possible! Keep communicating and never hold your feelings in. Talk about them, to someone. Til next time!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Sick Sick
Being sick sucks... just so everyone knows. It started off with Darien just having a simple cough and has led to me not being able to breath through my nose and feeling like someone has beat my face in. Even the boys haven't had it quite like this, they still seem happy-go-lucky.
Dariens was enough stress on his body, however, to cause him to break out in hives all over his face. At first we believed, as well as the ER doctors, that it was an allergic reaction. Though, after watching for a couple days, I really think it was just his cold causing it, and so does the doctor we saw today.
I, however, feel like a train wreck. Stuffy nose, horrible cough, headaches... just BLAH. You can tell when you come in my house too, it's a horrible wreck. I did some cleaning today just because I was sick of looking at it, but the rest can wait until I feel better.
Even school has taken a backseat to this cold. I am still doing my work, just not with as much effort and dedication. I am still doing pretty well though, so I am okay with it for now. Just ready to feel better and get back to being on top of my game again!
Dariens was enough stress on his body, however, to cause him to break out in hives all over his face. At first we believed, as well as the ER doctors, that it was an allergic reaction. Though, after watching for a couple days, I really think it was just his cold causing it, and so does the doctor we saw today.
I, however, feel like a train wreck. Stuffy nose, horrible cough, headaches... just BLAH. You can tell when you come in my house too, it's a horrible wreck. I did some cleaning today just because I was sick of looking at it, but the rest can wait until I feel better.
Even school has taken a backseat to this cold. I am still doing my work, just not with as much effort and dedication. I am still doing pretty well though, so I am okay with it for now. Just ready to feel better and get back to being on top of my game again!
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Misplaced Energy
You know, I really do love being pregnant. The only thing I can really wish for now is more energy. This pregnancy has really drained me recently, making simple things like getting dressed seem like too much of a task to accomplish. I've done really good at not staying in pj's all day, everyday, but man it's hard. I just need my energy back.
This week has been fantastic weather here in Germany, with the exception of the really cold, windy day today. The sun has been shining and the weather is comfortable for jeans and a sweater, just nice. I've taken advantage of the nice weather by getting out of the house more than normal. Whether it's going to the park or just driving around the base. It's been too beautiful to be stuck inside.
Unfortunately I missed the Fasching parade trying to see a friend who was flying through here on the way to Turkey. I missed them and the parade, but you know what? At least we got out of the house :) We were outside and in the sun so I can't complain a whole lot. It was nice, perfect weather for the parade.
Today we didn't do much because I wasn't feeling well. I woke up just feeling icky and just couldn't muster up enough energy to do anything. But, this afternoon I managed to find enough energy to get ready and go out to dinner with the squadron for a hail/fairwell dinner. It was nice and definitely glad I made myself go.
We went to the Schnapps Haus. They make their own schnapps and liquors, which are mighty tasty. No, I was not drinking tonight but I've been there and had their liquors before. The schnapps are a bit more than I can handle, at 80 proof, but the liquors have nice flavors and most are drinkable. The food is delicious and for 15 euro, you can't get much better. It's just a nice place for a group to go and have a good meal!
Now just trying to keep enough energy to wait for kiddos to fall asleep so I can do some homework and get myself to bed. Hopefully tomorrow I will find the energy that has been misplaced somewhere :)
This week has been fantastic weather here in Germany, with the exception of the really cold, windy day today. The sun has been shining and the weather is comfortable for jeans and a sweater, just nice. I've taken advantage of the nice weather by getting out of the house more than normal. Whether it's going to the park or just driving around the base. It's been too beautiful to be stuck inside.
Unfortunately I missed the Fasching parade trying to see a friend who was flying through here on the way to Turkey. I missed them and the parade, but you know what? At least we got out of the house :) We were outside and in the sun so I can't complain a whole lot. It was nice, perfect weather for the parade.
Today we didn't do much because I wasn't feeling well. I woke up just feeling icky and just couldn't muster up enough energy to do anything. But, this afternoon I managed to find enough energy to get ready and go out to dinner with the squadron for a hail/fairwell dinner. It was nice and definitely glad I made myself go.
We went to the Schnapps Haus. They make their own schnapps and liquors, which are mighty tasty. No, I was not drinking tonight but I've been there and had their liquors before. The schnapps are a bit more than I can handle, at 80 proof, but the liquors have nice flavors and most are drinkable. The food is delicious and for 15 euro, you can't get much better. It's just a nice place for a group to go and have a good meal!
Now just trying to keep enough energy to wait for kiddos to fall asleep so I can do some homework and get myself to bed. Hopefully tomorrow I will find the energy that has been misplaced somewhere :)
Thursday, February 24, 2011
School Update
Whew, I am coming to the end of my fourth college course. While I feel like I have done more, time sure has flown by. That, and the surprise of doing so well has kept me quite interested. I have started to notice more of a slack recently, though I think between being pregnant and icky all the time, I just haven't had the energy or desire to do much.
Even with the slack, I somehow managed to hold a perfect 100% in English Comp 2 for 4 weeks. I am fairly certain that when I get the grade for my writing assignment I will no longer have 100% but just the fact that I kept it up for this long has me quite proud of myself. Especially because I haven't been feeling well and I know I haven't really put in all of my efforts.
So, the fears I had because of how poorly I did in high school have been wiped away for the most part. I need to just put in a little more focus and effort and I know I can be great at this college thing. I am excited to see what my next classes are about and hope that I continue to do a great job.
I, right now, have a 4.0 GPA. I am hoping that this class won't change that, but I am not expecting a great grade on my final paper. It's a research paper and I am not very good when it comes to researching and writing about it. I'm a much better writer when it's personal or something I already have knowledge of.
Holding a 4.0 for longer than one class has been an accomplishment in itself. I will no longer question my ability but know that it's whether or not I give the effort and do the work. Let's just hope I don't lose sight of what I want for my future :)
Even with the slack, I somehow managed to hold a perfect 100% in English Comp 2 for 4 weeks. I am fairly certain that when I get the grade for my writing assignment I will no longer have 100% but just the fact that I kept it up for this long has me quite proud of myself. Especially because I haven't been feeling well and I know I haven't really put in all of my efforts.
So, the fears I had because of how poorly I did in high school have been wiped away for the most part. I need to just put in a little more focus and effort and I know I can be great at this college thing. I am excited to see what my next classes are about and hope that I continue to do a great job.
I, right now, have a 4.0 GPA. I am hoping that this class won't change that, but I am not expecting a great grade on my final paper. It's a research paper and I am not very good when it comes to researching and writing about it. I'm a much better writer when it's personal or something I already have knowledge of.
Holding a 4.0 for longer than one class has been an accomplishment in itself. I will no longer question my ability but know that it's whether or not I give the effort and do the work. Let's just hope I don't lose sight of what I want for my future :)
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
Military Friendship
Growing up, I was basically surrounded by the same people. I made new friends, but kept a lot of my friends throughout the years. Not saying that all of those friends are still friends of mine today, but for many years I stayed surrounded by the same people. Though, just as with anything else, there is good and bad to having the same group of friends for so long.
With military life, it's exactly the opposite. You make friends for short periods of time and then one of you has to leave. While you may keep in touch, friendships generally fizzle out after not being with each other for so long. It's tough, and there is good and bad to it.
Having been surrounded by the same people most of my teenage years, I found that I got caught up in a lot of things that wouldn't happen now. I mainly hung with the "bad" crowd and did lots of partying and other not so great stuff. But, I had the same people around me all the time, whether they were real friends or not. It was just a comfort zone for me. Knowing who would partake in the parties and who I could be "bad" with was easy. The comfort zone is always nice, but being surrounded by people who weren't true friends and who used me was the downfall. They knew how far they could get and they'd push it to the limit every time. Most of those people haven't been part of my life for years, but the true friends are still around.
Now, I make friends just to say good-bye to them. Whether they leave or I leave, we may have gotten a couple of years or just a few months. It always stinks to say good-bye to the great people I meet. It's hard to do, and doesn't have many upsides, in my opinion. The only upside I see to it is that I get to meet many different kinds of people and will maybe keep in touch with a handful of them. I've made some amazing friendships, but even some of those have begun to fizzle out, those that I haven't seen in a while. I still keep in touch, and have 1 or 2 that I am still VERY close to, but it's just different.
There might be one other good thing about it. Even though (at least in my experience) there is a lot of drama among military spouses, I haven't really dealt with as much drama as I did with the people I had around me for so many years. Maybe I just don't put up with it as much, or maybe because time is so limited people generally don't waste it with drama. I am not really sure, I just know that I haven't had as much to deal with. Now, don't get me wrong, I've had my fair share of drama with other spouses. It happens, and with women, how could you not expect it? It's just not something that occurs every single day for me, where before, it seemed like every 5 minutes there was new drama among the group of people I associated with.
Pretty soon, in just a couple short weeks, I get to say bye to someone I have grown to admire and consider a good friend. She's been there when I needed help, been there just to hang out and my boys love her boys. It kinda stinks because I feel like we just started becoming friends and now she's leaving. BUT, in the same token, everyone has to move on and she isn't going to another planet. Surely we will keep in touch and hopefully run into each other again sometime down the road.
Whether in the military life or not, friendship is hard. Like any relationship, it takes work and love to blossom and stay alive. Hopefully I will continue to make great friendships and for those that stay part of my life forever, I will be grateful for them! I will be grateful for anyone, all friendships. Because especially with the fact that most are temporary, you truly have to appreciate those people and what they bring to your life, even for just a brief time!
With military life, it's exactly the opposite. You make friends for short periods of time and then one of you has to leave. While you may keep in touch, friendships generally fizzle out after not being with each other for so long. It's tough, and there is good and bad to it.
Having been surrounded by the same people most of my teenage years, I found that I got caught up in a lot of things that wouldn't happen now. I mainly hung with the "bad" crowd and did lots of partying and other not so great stuff. But, I had the same people around me all the time, whether they were real friends or not. It was just a comfort zone for me. Knowing who would partake in the parties and who I could be "bad" with was easy. The comfort zone is always nice, but being surrounded by people who weren't true friends and who used me was the downfall. They knew how far they could get and they'd push it to the limit every time. Most of those people haven't been part of my life for years, but the true friends are still around.
Now, I make friends just to say good-bye to them. Whether they leave or I leave, we may have gotten a couple of years or just a few months. It always stinks to say good-bye to the great people I meet. It's hard to do, and doesn't have many upsides, in my opinion. The only upside I see to it is that I get to meet many different kinds of people and will maybe keep in touch with a handful of them. I've made some amazing friendships, but even some of those have begun to fizzle out, those that I haven't seen in a while. I still keep in touch, and have 1 or 2 that I am still VERY close to, but it's just different.
There might be one other good thing about it. Even though (at least in my experience) there is a lot of drama among military spouses, I haven't really dealt with as much drama as I did with the people I had around me for so many years. Maybe I just don't put up with it as much, or maybe because time is so limited people generally don't waste it with drama. I am not really sure, I just know that I haven't had as much to deal with. Now, don't get me wrong, I've had my fair share of drama with other spouses. It happens, and with women, how could you not expect it? It's just not something that occurs every single day for me, where before, it seemed like every 5 minutes there was new drama among the group of people I associated with.
Pretty soon, in just a couple short weeks, I get to say bye to someone I have grown to admire and consider a good friend. She's been there when I needed help, been there just to hang out and my boys love her boys. It kinda stinks because I feel like we just started becoming friends and now she's leaving. BUT, in the same token, everyone has to move on and she isn't going to another planet. Surely we will keep in touch and hopefully run into each other again sometime down the road.
Whether in the military life or not, friendship is hard. Like any relationship, it takes work and love to blossom and stay alive. Hopefully I will continue to make great friendships and for those that stay part of my life forever, I will be grateful for them! I will be grateful for anyone, all friendships. Because especially with the fact that most are temporary, you truly have to appreciate those people and what they bring to your life, even for just a brief time!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
All that and more!
It's been decided, after really thinking about it and considering all our options, that getting the van now was just the best idea. We've been approved, got a really low rate and have paid off some debt. Why not? We need it, no other reason needed than that.
We will start the paperwork Monday, so hopefully by the end of the week, beginning of next, I will be driving my new wheels! I am super stoked and look forward to picking it up!
Today I am roughly 9wks pregnant and definitely feel like it. I've been so ill the last couple of weeks, and not looking better anytime soon. Smells, looking at food and cooking have been almost impossible to handle. My stomach turns over every little thing and once I feel that way, it doesn't easily go away. Even the medicine I got at my appt isn't helping too awful much.
Because those aren't working, I am going to try investing in some preggy pops. I've never used them before but anyone I know that has, swears by them. Might as well try them. The worst they could really do is make it worse and then I just won't do that to myself again. Hopefully they will help, though, so I can get back to life as normal.
School is still going well! I am currently taking English Comp II. I have managed to keep my 4.0 thus far, and hoping that I don't mess it up with this class. I have to write a 7-8 page research paper and I am not very good at doing research. I could write all day about topics I have knowledge of, but to have to research a topic and write about it, not so easy for me. As of week 2, I do have a 100% in the class, to include my first assignment. Let's hope I can keep it up!
Other than that, life is pretty great! Kids are doing amazingly, hubby is amazing and I am just ecstatic that our family is growing! Now it's time for me to get some sleep!
We will start the paperwork Monday, so hopefully by the end of the week, beginning of next, I will be driving my new wheels! I am super stoked and look forward to picking it up!
Today I am roughly 9wks pregnant and definitely feel like it. I've been so ill the last couple of weeks, and not looking better anytime soon. Smells, looking at food and cooking have been almost impossible to handle. My stomach turns over every little thing and once I feel that way, it doesn't easily go away. Even the medicine I got at my appt isn't helping too awful much.
Because those aren't working, I am going to try investing in some preggy pops. I've never used them before but anyone I know that has, swears by them. Might as well try them. The worst they could really do is make it worse and then I just won't do that to myself again. Hopefully they will help, though, so I can get back to life as normal.
School is still going well! I am currently taking English Comp II. I have managed to keep my 4.0 thus far, and hoping that I don't mess it up with this class. I have to write a 7-8 page research paper and I am not very good at doing research. I could write all day about topics I have knowledge of, but to have to research a topic and write about it, not so easy for me. As of week 2, I do have a 100% in the class, to include my first assignment. Let's hope I can keep it up!
Other than that, life is pretty great! Kids are doing amazingly, hubby is amazing and I am just ecstatic that our family is growing! Now it's time for me to get some sleep!
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
I LOVE IT!
After experiencing the loss of a child, pregnancy is a blessing. Every part of pregnancy is a blessing, even the annoying, not so fun parts. I am really enjoying being pregnant again, even in the very early stages! The only thing I wish I didn't have to experience this time is nausea. I seem to be nauseous all the time. I have a hard time eating because the smell of food turns my stomach. It's horrible.
I haven't gained any weight as of today, though I think I have lost 3lbs. Mostly that is from reducing my soda intake by A LOT, but also not being able to eat doesn't help any. I try to snack throughout the day on foods that don't have a strong scent, and on things that will fill me up and give me some calories and other vitamins that I may need. That way, when I have to skip a meal because of an uncooperative stomach, I can do so without as much worry that I haven't had enough to keep me and baby healthy.
So far, the most popular question I have been asked is if we want a girl. The answer is Yes. I'd love to have a girl. Though, a happy healthy baby is more than enough, no matter the sex! I have decided that if this baby is a girl, we are done. If it's a boy, we may try 1 more time, but 4 is my absolute limit and it will be a while before I do it again. If this baby is a girl, my husband will be making his appointment to get snipped! Yep, you read that right, he will take on that responsibility since I have birthed his babies!
I am really excited to go through the weeks of pregnancy and enjoy every little milestone! I think I rushed through and didn't notice things with my other pregnancies that I do notice with this one. I also didn't really understand how amazing pregnancy was and complained all through the sickness. I may not care for it, but I am glad I am having symptoms at all and can really tell that this pregnancy is growing and progressing, even if it is making me ill.
I already love my little nugget and can't wait to finally see my baby when we see a dr. Or at least hear the heartbeat! Anywho! here's a photo of my belly... I am only 8 weeks but already showing. I am so tiny I have nowhere to grow but out. and I love it!
I haven't gained any weight as of today, though I think I have lost 3lbs. Mostly that is from reducing my soda intake by A LOT, but also not being able to eat doesn't help any. I try to snack throughout the day on foods that don't have a strong scent, and on things that will fill me up and give me some calories and other vitamins that I may need. That way, when I have to skip a meal because of an uncooperative stomach, I can do so without as much worry that I haven't had enough to keep me and baby healthy.
So far, the most popular question I have been asked is if we want a girl. The answer is Yes. I'd love to have a girl. Though, a happy healthy baby is more than enough, no matter the sex! I have decided that if this baby is a girl, we are done. If it's a boy, we may try 1 more time, but 4 is my absolute limit and it will be a while before I do it again. If this baby is a girl, my husband will be making his appointment to get snipped! Yep, you read that right, he will take on that responsibility since I have birthed his babies!
I am really excited to go through the weeks of pregnancy and enjoy every little milestone! I think I rushed through and didn't notice things with my other pregnancies that I do notice with this one. I also didn't really understand how amazing pregnancy was and complained all through the sickness. I may not care for it, but I am glad I am having symptoms at all and can really tell that this pregnancy is growing and progressing, even if it is making me ill.
I already love my little nugget and can't wait to finally see my baby when we see a dr. Or at least hear the heartbeat! Anywho! here's a photo of my belly... I am only 8 weeks but already showing. I am so tiny I have nowhere to grow but out. and I love it!
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